CONSUMING

• pint of ice water.
• pint of red berry & cream overnight oats.

CONTEMPLATING

• going to the bathroom.
• trip planning for my very far south side residency today.
• which workshop to teach.

WEARING

• "fund black futures" hoodie.
• favorite sleep scarf.
• oversized off-shoulder "democracy is a verb" t-shirt.
• no drawls.

WISHING

• I didn't have to leave the house today.
• I could be someplace sunnier.
• my bed would make itself.
• I could just fast forward to the weekend.
• I wasn't so lazy.
• my hips/lower back weren't in so much pain.
• I had woken up earlier and gone to the gym.

FINISHING

• pint of red berry and cream overnight oats.
• the end of my rope with Malcolm.

LOOKING FORWARD TO

• king spa this weekend with mama.
• getting back to being excited about teaching.
• pushing through this dead period I'm experiencing.
• my urthbox & love with food boxes being delivered.
• moving on.

FEELING

• aching.
• bloated.
• tense.
• stinky.
• sleepy.
• unmotivated.
• out of it.
• quietly sad.
  • must be the weather.

LISTENING TO

• the hum of my space heater.
• typing on keyboard.
• a mashup of little house by amanda seyfried & upgrade you by beyonce in my head.
• the notification ding on my phone.
  • David texting me "good morning, lady".

REFLECTING ON

• my very dignified text to Malcolm last night.
• my fruit fest, smoothie making marathon last night.
• really all the things I accomplished last night on a considerably lazy wednesday.
• last night's dream.

DREADING

hm. nothing actually. "dread" is such a heavy word. there are things I'm not looking forward to, for sure. but that's just because I'm a lazy person. nothing in my life is going that wrong. for once.

PLANNING ON

• getting up and brushing my teeth.
  • the aftertaste of these oats is strange and me no like it.
• taking a shit.
  • once again, the oats are to blame.
• making a cup of tea. it's so cold.
  • I might actually be dreading drinking those defrosting smoothies, come to think about it. it's cold as shit.