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- I lack communication skills. I want to say so many things, share new ideas, express myself but once I try, I somehow mix up my words cause I’m afraid of saying it all wrong. Though I am always in my head, always watching, always learning.
- I feel so much that sometimes it’s overwhelming. It’s hard to explain. I crave intimacy. But really no one can live up to my intellectual standards. Not even my everyday standards. I sadly know that no one will be there for me as deeply I am for them, so why bother. When I actually get what is expected, I feel so unsatisfied. It’s a never ending cycle of wanting and wanting something new.
- Being sociable and really trying to get to know someone is hard and takes forever. Trusting people is my biggest challenge, because I know how fluid people can be, how things can change in an instant. And also because I have no tolerance for idiocy. I keep my darker emotions to myself because I don’t want to ruin the fun, nor do I want most people to see that side of me. And as a result I feel like no one knows anything about me. Even the ones I love deeply don’t know the me deep down inside.
- When I feel like my emotions are going to pour out I quickly isolate myself, let them flow and carry on like nothing happened. Nobody will know. My mind then filters my emotions and gives me diagnosis on why they are there.
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