• His DIMPLES
• His soft southern accent
• He is VERY attractive
• His love of the Golden Girls and how he is my Rose and I am his Dorothy
• He used to call me Doll Face, once upon a time
• He has been my best friend for over 16 years
• We've never physically met
• We met through Myspace when I came across a blog he wrote about a breakup with his ex girlfriend and I reached out to this total stranger about it cuz his words really touched me. I wish I had saved a copy of his blog, just as a keepsake of how we came to know eachother
• He thinks I have a New York accent and calls me Jenny from the Block
• His love of Auburn college sports teams
• He lives in the sticks...Alabama
• When he is drunk he tells me a million times that I am pretty
• I am tethered to him emotionally...I've always felt drawn to him, even though we'd never work together romantically
• He was a Marine
• He doesn't share his clothes...they're too small for me anyway
• He buys great gifts
• He sacrifices his own happiness for the sake of others...which is sweet for everyone else, but destructive for him
• He loves his close friends a lot...I love that he has always wanted to take care of me, but it is enough for me that he is just there for me
• My daughter likes him more than her own dad
• He is having a real tough time right now trying to sort things and emotions out in his head. I want to help so bad but am not equipped for what he needs. Hopefully just knowing I will always be there for him helps in some small way
• When his daughter was little he used to wish that she would grow up to be a lesbian
• He seems to have terrible taste in women, they all seem nuts or take him for granted
• Like me, he struggles with depression. Unlike me, he is actually trying to get help for it
• He is probably the one person in the whole world that knows all the details of my struggles growing up with an alcoholic mom, and with being married to a drug addict, cheating husband. No one else ever got specifics of both those things
• He always tries to convince me to move to Alabama with Autumn...I just find it hard to move again for a single person and have no one but them like I did when I got married. Plus there is also all the humidity...Eeeek!
• When he is texting about something in great detail (e.g. something dirty), he usually does it in one gigantic run on sentence and I can actually imagine him saying all that without taking a breath or pausing...haha. And of course being me, I am mentally inserting commas and punctuation wherever they should be
• It bothers him when people say "Anyways". I don't think I have said it since he said that it drives him nuts
• I've written to him in the past (snail mail) and even though he says he will, he has never written me back. I don't think he is aware of just how much I cherish hand written letters and would save them forever
• When he calls me a Pen Pal I see red...especially since he has never written me back
• The craziest place he's had sex is in a prison bathroom
• He despises my soon to be ex-husband (as a good best friend should), but also pretty much dislikes any of the guys I've been associated with. Clearly my choices in men have been questionable
• I texted him that I was feeling down and lonely and as soon as he saw it he video called me. He asked me how I was and said he was on a date. I said, "If you are on a date why are you calling me?" He said, "Because you were feeling down." I said, "Yeah but you are on a date, you need to prioritize." He said, "I did prioritize, that's why I called you." AWWWW!!! (2/26/23)
• This was literally one of our most memorable old conversations:

ME: "People staring at me freaks me out."

NICK D: "So u wouldn't like it if i watched u sleep?"

ME: "haha...that's creepy. So would u actually watch me sleep?"

NICK D: "Probably. Yeah."

ME: "U wouldn't like stand by my bed and just stare down at me right, cuz that's scary? I think i could tolerate if u were in bed with me and u just thought i was cute while i slept so u watched me."

NICK D: "For some reason i like to watch people when they sleep. And women, i swear, are just really freakin' hot when they're sleeping. But also i'd get to keep an eye on u just for my own peace of mind that u were ok."

ME: "Aww baby, that's sweet. U wouldn't have to do that though."

NICK D: And no, i wouldn't stand over u or put a chair next to ur bed and watch u. That's creepy, and screams, 'I want to wear ur skin!!!'"

ME: Hahaha...YIKES!!!"