fav music

january

• truce - dresden dolls
  • for nostalgia reasons, for song-covering reasons, for screaming it to keep ourselves awake reasons
• doomstar requiem - dethklok
  • literally listened to this album like six times on our road trip. cannot go ten minutes without a line from it popping into my head
• holy diver - dio
  • getting asked "why did you start listening to dio?" and being unable to think of an answer that wasn't the honest truth (stranger things fanfiction)
  • anyway this song has maybe the greatest music video of all time

february

• cuts you up - peter murphy
  • somehow never heard this until now but man what an absolute instant fave

march

• feed the mantaray - soft play
  • i wake up with this in my head like 90% of the time
• hexie mountains - orville peck
  • i'm glad i started tracking media bc i can look back and see that this was not one of my faves when the album dropped, but it's probably a top ten all time fave for me at this point
• war pigs - t-pain
  • honestly t-pain is legitimately one of the greatest vocalists of all time

april

• funny business - alice merton
  • mostly just the chorus tbh
• all the way down - iggy pop
  • finally listened to every loser and while it was overall an incredible album, this one's my fave
• skinny ape - gorillaz
  • just listened to cracker island for the first time and while this wasn't my top song from the album, it is the one i've got on repeat
• my cosmos is mine - depeche mode
  • i didn't actually love this album but this song is an absolute banger
• acheron - patrick wolf
  • honestly this whole EP should be on this list
• for her - fiona apple
  • mom: do you know this one?
  • me: is it... a club mix of a greek chorus?

may

• gardenia - iggy pop
  • the bowieness is just what i need right now, idk
• i hate you - frank carter & the rattlesnakes
  • just a vibe unfortunately
• worse than yesterday - tweaker
  • fai sent me this and said "it kinda feels like something it's weird we didn't already know about" and this is absolutely correct. like this whole album woulda been formative as hell if i'd heard it in 2004, but especially this song. retconning this into my history tbh
• new gold - gorillaz feat. tame impala and bootie brown
  • had this on repeat on the bus one day after not sleeping the night before and i was so tired that every time it started again i was like "oh! this song! i like this song!" just totally surprised and delighted every time. like i was a baby playing peekaboo with damon albarn

june

• never fight a man with a perm - idles
  • video is incredible. and gross. incredibly gross i love it
• ruby - tweaker
  • still on this album but especially this track, there is honestly nothing better than smoking my way to a light buzz and listening to this song on repeat

july

• adam raised a cain - bruce springsteen
  • "i used to be the mom friend but i've been dadcoded since getting springsteen-pilled"
• drive - rem
  • i might not be beating the dadcoded allegations i fear
• mind your business - will.i.am & britney spears
  • long live the queen

august

• silver - pixies
  • had this on repeat for the entire start of the month, pretty much. like i had doolittle on repeat a lot but then i would just hit silver and leave it on for hours
• a noiseless noise - pj harvey
  • my 24 hours of travel to california was largely spent dozing to this album and then startling awake when this one came on. such a good song i couldn't make myself remove it from the playlist so i could sleep solidly
    • and also i was too tired to adjust the playlist but that's another story
• goldigger - tsar b
  • tricks don't work on me
• ruby - tweaker
  • looping this album in the shittiest motel we've stayed in, waking up to smoke inside and smoke outside and being so sad to leave

september/october

• one more page of insincerity please - veruca salt
  • had somehow never heard this before but as with pretty much every song fai sends me, it became an immediate fave
• c'mon billy - pj harvey
  • probably my fave of hers, have been listening to it a lot lately
• i'll be yours (version 4 a.m.) - placebo
  • this song is so great but this particular version... transcendent
• beck + call - july talk feat. tanya tagaq
  • spent a good few hours just watching every live performance of this i could find, always amazing, i love july talk so much
• waste - kmfdm
  • saw a youtube comment on this that said "i like this song it is cool" and that's how i feel about this. no deep thoughts or anything. i like this song it is cool

november

• s'old - taking back sunday
  • loved this whole album tbh but this one kicked me in the fucking face

december

• take me home country roads - lana del ray
  • not a lana fan and frankly john denver was a piece of shit but also: i fucking love that song and i fucking love this cover
• undertow - ivy
  • one of my mom's jams and i'm so mad i didn't know it first? how did i get through the year 2000 without this

tv/web series

january

• interview with the vampire
  • only got uhhhhh one episode in but it is as delicious and decadent as my 13-year-old self would have wanted
• letterkenny
  • icb i went to the states and watched 11 entire seasons of the most canadian show possible
  • i'd have a dart
  • showed a few eps to my mom without thinking about the fact that she would start telling me "pitter patter" every second of every day. this is how i live now
• shoresy
  • i've only had sanguinet for a day and a half but if anything happened to him i would kill everyone in this room and then myself
• futurama
  • i don't love it but i get why people do
• paranormal lockdown
  • this is actually watchable, what a glowup for the ghost adventures guy
• that 90s show
  • hot take: ehhhhhhhh it's fine
• top 5 beatdown
  • perfect post-flight watching tbh
• easy bake battle
  • seen a lot of complaints about this and honestly they're right! but consider: antoni
  • [antoni voice] antoni is something that can be so personal
  • also i love they have the contestants hanging out together and saying nice things together for the commentary bits?
• critical role
  • getting caught up on what i missed during holidays/travel. so far: fake orgy
  • planerider ryn is both wife goals and life goals
  • ✦✧˚*.₊̣̇. fearne .₊̣̇.*˚✧✦
  • marriage ended with planerider ryn, nana morri is my wife now

february

• critical role
  • i went too hard trying to do errands before the latest episode started and ended up crashing. i theoretically watched it but i have no idea what happened
• stranger things
  • i watched the first season in about an hour and a half, mashing the skip 10 seconds button. i really struggle with a lot of media where kids are in danger, though i can't articulate why some bother me so much and some don't
  • really enjoyed the second season! billy is the worst but is also, unfortunately, Gender
  • i loved the third season except my hatred for hopper has grown to the point where it was unbearable to watch any scene he was in
  • season 4... ok well that happened
  • like when you've got a character saying, in impassioned russian, "i was told the peanut butter smuggler was once a great man" you really gotta consider the riverdale of it all
  • also i'm not impressed that hopper gets to live meanwhile they keep killing my boys
  • also!! after two seasons of escalating mindflayer creepiness and then you go to vecna?? what a fucking downgrade, like yeah he's superpowered or whatever but he's literally just some guy. i'm here for the incomprehensible horrors and you gave me a quirked up white boy who can be defeated by pop songs during a week in history when 'rock me amadeus' was at the top of the billboard hot 100

march

• top 5 beatdown
  • getting into watcher with my mom during the pandemic was a fun thing until this episode, which was so funny i cried multiple times but also it was very embarassing to watch with her lmfao
• idk some more watcher stuff that i forgot to list here, but if they posted it i watched it lmao

april

• critical role
  • finally getting caught up!
  • imogen kinda flirting with ira over sending?? okay okay okay yeah i support this
  • ashton & laudna are literally everything to me
  • ok i'm getting caught up now and holy shit
  • enjoying the uthodern squad's antics (fcg + frida are so cute oh my god. i'm not always a person who goes for cute but damn) but i reaaaaally wanna know what ashton and laudna (and i guess orym) are up to!!
  • the goats though. the goats
• good omens
  • rewatch time!
  • forgot about how damning it is to see crowley and realize that's my fashion goals
  • this was so good that i didn't even really notice i was binging it until suddenly i had no more episodes
• the mentalist
  • i'm extremely good at guessing the killer and i keep being like "i'm such a good detective" when really what i am is good at storytelling
  • trying to avoid spoilers (for this show that finished a solid decade ago) but i do hope that jane gets to murder red john. like they kinda keep pushing this "vengeance is unhealthy" narrative that i'm just not about. let the man do a little murder, as a treat
  • i will say that while i love this show a lot, as a liability-minded person i get hives at jane's antics. but as a prison abolition-minded person my skin then immediately clears knowing that literally none of these criminals would actually face prison time bc of jane's antics

may

• the mentalist
  • jane still on his bullshit, and me still on my bullshit (which is enjoying his bullshit)
  • i love cho
• critical role
  • the 'rip jerry the goat' flask
  • i love aabria so much
  • i would throw down my life for deni$e
• mystery files
  • i'm so glad it isn't (or doesn't seem like it's going to be?) recent, gory true crime, that shit really does bug me (see: hate list)
  • the set is honestly my dream aesthetic lmfao i'm such a retrotech snob and i love an interior that would not be out of place in a cabin

summer (because i fully lost track updating monthlies, oops)

• critical role
  • i'm very behind now and it's difficult to make myself catch up when i'm this busy because i just don't love this campaign? i really dislike two characters and it really undermines my enjoyment of the show as a whole
  • that said, fearne is everything to me
• candela obscura
  • this one i did love! it's always a little weird for me to watch live plays of games i don't know the rules of, though. no idea how the mechanics of this worked even though they explained it constantly
• puppet history
  • did i spend this whole season waiting for the other shoe to drop? well yes
  • this new horse is NOT good enough for our dorothy ruth
• stranger things
  • rewatched while housesitting bc i needed something i didn't need to pay attention to while i did other things
• the witcher
  • oh man this new season. the complaints are.... yeah. yeah
  • that said, the episode that's like a heist at the fancy wizard party told out of sync? YEAH!!!
    • like i am not sure it was a good episode bc some of the writing was like "hi geralt. let me introduce you to these seventeen assorted wizards so the audience will hopefully be at least a little sad when they all die ten minutes from now" but the outfits! the geralt & istredd team-up! the drama! valdo marx and his weird little glee club!
• solar opposites
  • fai pitched this to me with the wall subplot and i was immediately hooked. just me chanting "wall lore wall lore wall lore" the whole way through
  • i also surprisingly became very invested in glenn. that's the sci-fi show representation i specifically need (guy whose only skill brought to the table is being really into the fast and the furious)
• harley quinn
  • i enjoyed this soooooooo much
  • this is the joker i both need and deserve
    • and also the clayface i need and deserve
• metalocalypse
  • rewatch before army of the doomstar
  • every time i rewatch i'm just like. what a fucking show!!! they did that!!! i can't believe i care so much about a bunch of fictional cartoon metal guys who objectively suck!!!

september

• preacher
  • one episode in and i'm obsessed with tulip and also cassidy

ok well i lost track. special shoutout to the final season of letterkenny in december. sun darts forever

movies "watch a few movies, take a few notes"

• scooby doo! and the witch's ghost (01??)
  • honestly falls a little short of what i want in a scooby doo movie but it makes up for it with the hex girls
• the frighteners (0108)
  • haven't seen this since i was too young to see it but saw it anyway
  • absolutely the reason i'm so horny for haunted houses now
• stick it (0109?)
  • still a classic
• step up 2 (0110?)
  • honestly great???
  • only issue was the lack of chemistry between the leads vs the intense chemistry she had with literally every single other character
  • spent the whole movie waiting for nick cannon to show up. why did i think nick cannon was in this
• stigmata (0111?)
  • OG hot priest flick, still enjoyable
  • patricia arquette is such a vibe in this one
• stir of echoes (0112)
  • honestly nice to enjoy a horror piece where i disliked the characters but was still rooting for them (sucks to suck, cloverfield/paranormal activity/house of leaves)
• palm springs (0119)
  • immediate top 10 fav for sure
• the lord of the rings: the fellowship of the ring (0119)
  • probably shouldn't count this because i put it on for sleeping-on-a-plane viewing and immediately conked out, but perhaps i absorbed some vibes
• scream (0309)
  • eternal classic, eternal fave
  • when i rewatched the series last summer i realized i fucking hate dewey so watching the earlier entries now is like having your favorite meal and then a fly lands on it
  • i never know what to put on those lists that go around that are like "8 movies to know me" or whatever but this really does gotta be there. formative as fuck
  • sid really had sex in stu's parents' bed with the door open and then used the hairbrush on their end table... like in the greater scheme of things obviously not the worst behavior happening in that house that night, but girl!!
• scream 2 (0311)
  • i love the film class scene but it does make me a little nervous about how one of my classes has been all slasher movies all the time specifically as scream vi drew nearer... rip to us i guess
    • it's not even a film class it's just nerds
  • i get so mad when dewey makes fun of gale's streaks?? she's a solid 11/10 and you're wearing khakis, get it the fuck together man
  • the cassandra scene!!! the cassandra scene!!!!!!!!
• scream 3 (0319)
  • must a movie be "good". is it not enough to simply enjoy the gale + jennifer scenes
    • they should have kissed and i stand by that
  • they really made gale lose her logicality in this one tho and i have to assume it's a coronation street situation where there's only one brain cell in the group and it's sexually transmitted
• scream 4 (0319)
  • this deserved an oscar for best costume design for how they dressed kirby tbh
  • also kirby is everything. this is probably my least favorite movie in the franchise but god i love kirby
• scream 5 (0321)
  • i love sam and tara so much
  • i love gale fucking weathers so much!!!
  • me sleeping peacefully like a little honk-shoo-mimimimi mouse knowing dewey's out of the picture, i'm sorry to be a hater but i do be hating
  • the traditional post-movie "wait so who got killed by which killer" body count... (redacted) what are you even doing with this guy. what is he bringing to the table here
  • here's the thing... billy loomis is a great dad though
    • i know a lot of dads who don't show up for their kid like that. and those dads are corporeal. the fuck is their excuse
• the faculty (0403)
  • god it has BEEN a minute
  • forgot this opens with the kids aren't alright. we must stan
  • stokely was who and how i was trying to be circa y2k. icon
  • jordana brewster has always been my everything
  • the fun thing about this movie is going a few years between watching it and then getting to be like "THEY'RE in this?!?" with increasing incredulity. bebe neuwirth?? jon stewart?? salma hayek?!?"
  • ok the stranger things writers have a lot to answer for with all the stuff they cribbed directly from this movie lmfao. like weren't you supposed to be sticking to the 80s.
    • for real you got your jock with layers. your creepy lil photography nerd taking pictures of the hot student journalist. charismatic drug dealer repeating senior year. lesbian (ok in this case "lesbian" but at least they changed that in this millennium's iteration) who calls people "dingus." kid finding a new species of "polliwog" but oops it's actually some kind of creature that's gonna take over the town via hivemind. town literally named herrington
  • if i were in this movie and needed to do coke or whatever for the first time to prove i was not an alien, i would simply not do the whole fucking dose??? that was not smart u guys
  • in high school i remember being like 'yeah i'm a Cinephile but this is a guilty pleasure' and all these years later i'm just like 'i feast solely on garbage. except for this. this is a genuinely good movie'
• the woman in black (0415)
  • are the village folk trying to drive daniel radcliffe out to keep him safe, or because he is from the city? like honestly it could be either. or both
  • ok they almost lost me til shit got even more fucked up in the village lmao
  • this movie truly delivers the greatest horror: when you think all the paperwork is done and then you find more paperwork
  • overall this was kind of... heavy-handed i guess? like kipps reads a death certificate for a seven-year-old boy and then it cuts to a close-up on the drawing kipps' kid did... yes we get it
  • anyway this had a few jump scares but imo it was not scary. amazingly acted but honestly that kinda made the movie worse? like i just kept being reminded of how good this could have been
  • i can't decide if it was a really good bad movie, or a really bad good movie
  • excited to watch the '89 adaptation though
• scream vi (0429)
  • let's fucking goooooo
  • mad they never paid neve campbell......
  • guessed the twist but not the killers lmfao i went in a weird direction
  • KIRBY
  • honestly a very nice indictment of true crime lmfao
• fast x (0520)
  • spoilers below!!
  • i hope every director watching this realizes they gotta let jason momoa have fun in movies
    • i quoted that tweet that was like "he's having the time of his life as a supervillainous brunch gay" to my friends like ten minutes in but then he only got exponentially brunch gayer. incredible
  • intrigued and glad that han appears to have drifted (no pun intended) over to the ramsey/tej/rome side of the polycule. the cool kids table if u will
  • when john cena was like "ok so let's take the rocket kayak to my cannon car" i was just like yes babe!!! we are so far beyond logic and reason that i am comprehending the mysteries of the universe!!!!!
  • brie larson in that flared ruffly high-low coat at the secret antarctic black site... brie larson then showing up with guns a-firing while wearing a baby blue pantsuit and sparkly silver sneakers.... no idea what drugs the costuming department was on but this was incredible, no notes
    • also tess/isabel... i am just saying
  • we spent a good bit of the drive home being like "why did they rebuild the toretto house so shittily" but i think i was onto something when i was like "wait maybe they were like 'inevitably someone will get thrown through these floors and walls. let's make them breakaway walls in case it's us'"
  • no u got teary when u heard the see you again instrumental reprise. not me
  • honestly so much happened in this that i will probably just be remembering bits and adding to this list for the next three weeks lmao
• demon house (0813)
  • when u see me typing zak bagans' name please know i'm saying that last name in my head like i'm gollum real mad about my stolen precious, because goddamn this man sucks so bad
  • honestly i need to do my own house flipping show called "unhaunting" where i come into a "haunted" house and tell the homeowners i'm a medium/exorcist who's gonna send their restless ghosts and demons on their way. but i actually get rid of the mold and asbestos and pests and fix the CO2 leaks, and then six months later we come back to see if the ghosts ever came back

hellraiser (0814)

• it has been a minute!! so long i forgot this is labyrinth for sickos
• honestly the only scary part of this movie is how bad both parties in the opening scene need to clean their fingernails
• hellraiser movies so far have not ever scared me which is probably bc every time i see pinhead i'm like "could not be me with all those pins. i sleep on my stomach" and just imagine him getting stuck in the pillow every morning
• kirsty is such a quality final girl

(at this point i have largely lost track of when i did things, but i did keep track of what said things were at least!)

• lord of the rings
• metalocalypse: the doomstar requiem
• metalocalypse: army of the doomstar
• demolition man
• robin hood: men in tights
• megamind
• popstar: never stop never stopping

books and stories

completed

• the hurting kind, ada limón (0121)
  • There is a solitude in this world
  • I cannot pierce. I would die for it.
  • i'm like three poems in and just like THIS IS FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!!!! it's taking everything in me to not just quote constantly
  • honestly i just wish more nature poems included nods to strip malls and drainage ditches and government websites
  • Who would have told you life was a series of warnings, but also magic.
  • overall i loved these but was not super into the seasons as framing device, idk i love cyclical time but it didn't work for me here
  • but fortunately what did work: every goddamn one of these poems
  • We were
  • both human and animal-hearted,
  • bound to the blades, bound to outrun them.
• beloved beasts: fighting for life in an age of extinction, michelle nijhuis (0123)
  • hooting, hollering as i read The story of modern species conservation is full of people who did the wrong things for the right reasons, and the right things for the wrong reasons.
  • about halfway through now and i really do appreciate the balance of "here's how this person influenced the conservation movement! and also they were a slaveowner/championed eugenics/put human beings in sideshows." like i feel like a lot of conservation works try to stress that conservation is of dire importance (true!) so it doesn't matter what early conservationists did (extremely untrue!)
  • The problem [...] is that Homo sapiens is monumentally unprepared for divinity. As the presumptive drivers of evolution, we may not be dumb, but we are often drunk. We are clever cousins of the mushrooms, promoted beyond our experience.
• the long covid survival guide, ed. fiona lowenstein (0124)
  • i read this even though afaik i've stayed covid-free because i thought it might have some good stuff for self-advocacy re: talking to doctors about chronic invisible illness. lo and behold i was right! as ever, the chronic illness community is way more helpful than literally any government resource :/
  • anyway read this! read this book! it is better to read it and never need it than the other way around!
• ninth house, leigh bardugo (0216)
  • reread bc i know i liked it the first time and i'm waitlisted at the library for the second one, but i don't remember much
  • By the time Alex managed to get the blood out of her good wool coat, it was too warm to wear it.
  • honestly such an absolute banger of an opening line
  • He'd known the truth of the building, all of its faces, that it had been built to the Platonic ideal (the building was a temple), employing the same ratios used by some typesetters for their pages (the building was a book), that its marble had been quarried in Vermont (the building was a monument).
  • i know better than anyone the pain of an unavoidable morning class but alex scheduling an 8 am spanish lecture for friday when she's gotta be up til 4 to watch ghosts during secret society haruspicy? when we've already established she did not have to take spanish? girl wyd
    • okay we have since established that she did not in fact choose her classes with the knowledge she would have weekly 4am haruspicy interfering so that's something
  • He didn't know how precious a normal life could be, how easy it was to drift away from average. You started sleeping until noon, skipped one class, one day of school, lost one job, then another, forgot the way that normal people did things. You lost the language of ordinary life.
  • honestly there's something so funny about the idea of being passive-aggressive in the secret society group chat because someone's too busy on the new moon to return your friend from the pocket dimension and/or hell he appears to have accidentally magicked himself into
  • not to be dramatic but i would both kill and murder for pamela dawes
  • "Most cities are palimpsests," Darlington had once told her. When she'd searched for the word's meaning, it had taken her three starts to find the right spelling. "Built over and over again so you can't remember what went where. But New Haven wears its scars. The big highways that run the wrong way, the dead office parks, the vistas that stretch into nothing but power lines. No one realizes how much life happens between the wounds, how much it has to offer. It's a city built to make you want to keep driving away from it."
    • i like this bit but mostly it reminds me of how i'd never heard this word before i read this book the first time and then i heard it about five times in the next two days and got freaked out. haunted by palimpsests
  • Why do you think they built so many churches here? Somehow the men and women of this city knew: Their streets were home to other gods.
  • fun reread overall, excited for book 2 whenever it ends up in my holds
• entangled life, merlin sheldrake
  • i've been wanting to read this since i read underland and my library finally got it, but then i was waitlisted forever?? like how are there so many locals desperate for mycorrhizal network non-fiction and why are they not my friends already
  • o to be a little bug in the devonian period living in my little prototaxite cubbyhole
  • normally i'm super into pop science but this might be the rare occasion where i already know too much going in so it's not exciting me like i thought it would :(
    • also over the last few years i've gotten really into, like, science writing that is so evocative it's almost sensual? like pal i can tell you like fungi a lot but this is somehow a little too platonic for me
  • i do appreciate him venturing into animism tho.
  • reading the biocomputing section and i'm just like... four-word horror story: AI-powered fungal network
  • reading the words "a paper called 'queer theory for lichens'" and immediately abandoning this book to go read the journal of critical environmental studies
  • i promise that if i ever write a nature-related book i will never mention john muir or aldo leopold even once
  • ok well i guess i'm done bc 350 out of like 900 pages were acknowledgements and citations? love the paying of dues but damn. anyway i did not care for this and i'm very disappointed
  • ok so it turns out i had covid when i was reading this so like, probably it wasn't this poor dude's fault i couldn't enjoy his book. i honestly don't even remember reading it
    • me, my brain baking at 103 degrees: hm i wonder why i'm not enjoying this
• marple: twelve new mysteries (0325)
  • standouts for this: ruth ware, jean kwok, dreda say mitchell, elly griffiths, karen mcmanus, kate mosse, leigh bardugo
  • ok now i'm getting defensive over the stories i didn't really like bc i looked at goodreads and sooooo many people are just like.... you know how people on that site can get
  • kinda like damn why am i not getting miss marple fanfic published tho
• hell bent, leigh bardugo (0407)
  • i've been waitlisted since january and i was afraid my library hold would come in while i was finishing my capstone but it came in like 12 hours after i submitted it!! excited to dig in
  • It was hard to breathe. Once bones broke, they learned the habit.
  • once again i say: not to be dramatic but i would both kill and murder for pamela dawes
  • "I don't know how to forgive," Alex admitted. "And I don't think I want to learn." she's just like me fr
  • i do love the way this is getting set up kinda like a heist but the assembling-the-team part is "ok so who are the most ethical murderers we know"
  • Things you love, things you need, they don't stop taking.
  • Pam had done her best to smile. She'd never liked that phrase, diamond in the rough. All that meant was they had to cut you again and again to let the light in.
  • reading tripp's murder section like damn this guy's my friend now, and my son, and he should get to do a little murder as a treat
    • ngl i had my fingers crossed for how things shook out for him lmfao
  • 'happy phantom' by tori amos as a ward against ghosts... incredible
  • tripp's "i believe in transformative growth" i love him
  • anyway very enjoyable!!!
• the lifecycle of software objects, ted chiang (1015)
  • wait have i really not read a book that wasn't for work or school since april... ugh reading books for a living sounds so great on paper but my eyes can only handle so much. i miss the fun reading
    • especially bad since this was in fact for school, lmao
  • anyway i really enjoyed this, but possibly because i had to do four incredibly dense anthropological theory readings before this and it was absolutely a breath of fresh air. but also i think because ted chiang is very good
  • i mean you know i eschew "hard science" fiction bc i'm so much more into the le guin-style thing, what i always think of as "hard social science" fiction. i don't care about the actual physical mechanics of what's happening, tell me about the social implications
  • which is what ted chiang does so well! yes yes there's some very complicated AI going on but more importantly oh god we just created 70000 ethical dilemmas and also our AI children are learning to swear from AI fortnite
• tlön, uqbar, orbis tertius, jorge luis borges (1020)
  • ok i'm switching this list from books to lit bc my social science classes suddenly became very short fiction oriented out of nowhere and i do not want to omit this one bc goddamn!!!
  • Almost immediately, reality yielded on more than one account. The truth is that it longed to yield.
• the ones who walk away from omelas, ursula k. le guin (1020)
  • another one for class. not my favorite of hers but i mean le guin is always worth reading
  • i'm just like. very glad it's only a few pages though bc i can only stand to think about utilitarianism so long

abandoned

• fisherman's bible: the world's most comprehensive angling reference
  • i took this out of the library to satisfy my vague curiosity about fishing lures. i pass them every time i buy camping gear and i'm just like "why are some of these so pricy. why are some of these so cheap. are there, like, luxury fishing lures."
  • was my question answered? well i clicked on the lures section and here's an excerpt of the first lure review:
  • Features: Hottest bait to hit crappie fishing in a long time; serious slab enticing features; tight wobble; highly detailed design; 3D lazer eyes; quality components; fiving depths up to 10'.
  • anyway so i just have more questions now BUT i do think fishing lures are very pretty so maybe i will buy some and make a piece of wall art with them and/or protect myself from enemies with their 3D lazer eyes
• fen, bog and swamp, annie proulx
  • i've had a hate-on for annie proulx since the shipping news (newfoundland stuff by non-newfoundlanders is so very often ???????) but ya boi can't resist a bog
  • "we have our modern-day thoreaus in Inuit people" aaaaand ya boi is closing this book, jesus christ
• dracula, bram stoker
  • never actually finished dracula daily last year but let's see how this year goes!
  • very nice to be hanging out with my good friend jonathan again
  • update: stopped after like day 2 lmao. i do love dracula but maybe it was too soon

work not detailing stuff i read for work here for privacy reasons but my current book count is: 7

video games

• slay the spire
  • icb it's been literally a year of playing the daily every single day i've been home and i'm still not tired of it
• fallout 4
  • trying to get missing achievements this time, which unfortunately means it's time for a brotherhood playthrough followed by an institute playthrough
  • deadass if i got isekai'd into either of these godawful playthroughs i'd feel like i deserved it for making such terrible choices
  • well i killed the railroad twice and i feel like a monster, i'm sorry deacon my beloved
  • as soon as i got the two achievements i started a new one for my last few achievements. new girl ruby is NOT a monster but she IS romancing cait so she's definitely an asshole
• diluvian winds (demo/prologue)
  • this is so sweet and also challenging that i'm playing it again even though it's kinda bare bones in this form. i can't wait for the full game, i wanna make beautiful, sprawling bases that help these sweet little critters thrive
• stardew valley
  • ♪♪ ♪ when the ennui sets in ♪ it's time for stardew ♪ ♪
  • tried to go back to this save to cheer myself up while i have covid but immediately got too overwhelmed and had to lie down from like, the exhaustion following the stress of looking at the fake parsnips i had to fake water
  • new playthrough!
    • married abigail (not marrying shane is a testament to how decent my mental health is rn)
• skyrim
  • i've been resisting for years at this point since my ps3 broke. i was like "no i can't do it, i can't buy skyrim again" but i still have covid and i really needed a familiar game that would not be mentally taxing lmao
  • current dragonborn is an imperial named martina, she is very good at speech and very bad at everything else. all she knows is eat hot soup and lie
  • survival mode is fun, i like that when you experience hunger it flashes red and the ground shakes. like yes that is in fact how being hangry works
  • god this is a boring game and i love it so much
  • getting all het up because i'm playing a female character but i guess the mannequins are "male" bc the armor changes when i put it on them... either make armor gender-neutral or let my mannequins wear armored crop tops
  • i'm on a new save now bc while i'm largely recovered, i'm trying to get caught up on an entire half semester of school thanks to travel + strike + illness, and that takes all my brainpower so i really need a game that just sends me to caves to find lost objects
  • i modded to avoid the main quest and am having a grand time roaming around as a vampire hunter
• verne: the shape of fantasy (demo)
  • you know your boy LOVES a jules verne adventure game, i am excited for the full game to come out
• code vein
  • got this bc it was free this month. no idea what's happening. having a blast
• king of the castle
  • voted in favor of my own execution, paving the way for the team to bring about ragnarok by funding a theater. truly a great game
• subnautica
  • kinda forgot this game existed but uhhhhh some world news made me remember. doing much better at it this time bc i am pacing myself to not trigger vertigo, lol
• moonring
  • i am having soooooo much fun with this, i can't believe it's a free game
  • me, pleasantly: i'm gonna kill god :)
• the abc murders
  • this is..... ok so i like the voice acting. the animation is a choice and sometimes i like that choice but other times, hm.
  • the thing with a poirot game is that me playing as poirot is inherently ooc. the dumbification of hercule poirot. he would not button-mash. he would not keep walking into things
  • LOVE the ego point thing though and that you can earn them by looking into every mirror you see. in this way, he and i are the same
• dragon age ii
  • sooooo fun to revisit after so long, truly the GOAT, i love my kirkwall friends so much