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- "I'd always thought that my awkwardness was a thin veil disguising the real me. The me that was funny and could write songs that touched people. The me that would one day find some beautiful, intelligent boy who'd recognize me as his soul mate. The me who was secretly pretty and stylish if only someone would lift the veil and see. But I was beginning to suspect that underneath the awkwardness there was just more awkwardness and not much else. And that would explaind why I stood in a room full of people and felt like the loneliest girl in the world."
- "So much of ther time spent like this: dreaming up things to say and never quite saying them."
- "I am tired of trying to hold things together that cannot be held... Trying to control what cannot be controlled. I am tired of denying myself what I want for fear of breaking things I cannot fix. They will break not matter what we do."
- "That's what happens. You let people in, and they destroy you."
- "I love you more than words. And I am a big fan of words."
- "Story of my life: I am so self-destructive, I turn solutions into problems. Everything I touch, I ruin. I'm Midas in reverse."
- "I think the most common cause of insomnia is simple; it’s loneliness."
- "I have this strange feeling that I'm not myself anymore. It's hard to put into words, but I guess it's like I was fast asleep, and someone came, disassembled me, and hurriedly put me back together again. That sort of feeling."
- "Her heart was a secret garden and the walls were very high."
- "I'm afarid to let people get close to me, to let them matter to me. It hurts too much think about them. The ones you love with everything you have, but they could care less about you. Ones who are dead or hate you, ones you think about all the time, but never get to be with. I like having friends, but I'm so scared of how they might fuck me up in the end."
- "I love you and it’s getting worse."
- "It's just that I'm the kind of person," Rebecca continued, 'that thinks if you took a map of the world and put a pin in it for every peson, there woudn't be a pin for me"
- "All I can see are all the reasons you shouldn't want me."
- "There’s a big difference, I discovered, between wanting to die and not wanting to live. When you want to die, you at least have a goal. When you don’t want to live, you’re really just empty."
- "What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction."
feb 19 2013 ∞
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