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i just quit my job now i can stay out all night long
chest of frenzy when i saw you / working at my old summer job / it singed a nerve / i thought i was lost / here i was, measuring my scars / envisioning yours twice as long / your skin is smooth and shining like / my street when it rains
i've got some bad ideas / i'll tell you on the phone
i think i hate my body / until it's next to yours
i'm in the hotel bathroom staring at my thighs / i remember my body showed / its evil in others' rooms
and the water's warm but it still stings your shins when you are wading in / and it's rain that swim my feet so wet / the sweat of our bodies coming & filling it in
i think i'm due for a shitty tattoo
i sleep in late / it's such a waste / passing my youth in half-days
my body holds me like a prison / weeping, wilting, whistling / there is no winner / i skip dinner / they still want you thinner
my body grows, my city shrinks / i feel her hands around my waist / not like we're dancing / like she's pushing me away / my shoulders back, my stomach in / i rub my sweat into her skin / it makes her glow but not enough / to keep me in / i ride the buses, take the trains / i squeeze my figure through her veins / i am congestion / i'm the blood clot in her leg / in movie theaters, public parks / in delis, markets, coffee shops / her organs fold and wave me / gasping in her streets
when i hear the radio play i don't care that it's not me
oh i can't break away, i must have you everyday, as regularly as coffee or tea
i stare at the sky so i know which way's up