some sad blog

23.01.25

• how is january almost over already? i'm glad anyway. it is a dreadful month and this was particularly awful. the weather doesn't help. the constant sickness either.
• neglecting work as much as i can.
• taking valium too often to numb it all, to pace my heart rate. i know it works when i can't remember proper words.
• so much i want to do. so much needs to be done.
• i need to cleanse this house. feeling like everything started to derrail since we moved.
• maybe the color of the walls. maybe the mess. maybe the despair of realizing i have so little time to try and make it a proper home.

20.01.2025

• i've been a bad, bad girl. i've been careless with a delicate man. and it's a sad, sad world, when a girl will break a boy just because she can
• giulio

17.01.2025

• how can time fly so fast?
• what can i do with this impending sense of doom?

13.01.2025

• feeling anxious again, out of the blue. it's been a while.
• feeling the momentary sweet soothing of the pill. it's been a while too.
• a bittersweet ending to a video game. made me shed a tear or two.