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Inspired by smithmag and various lists I've seen around. Every day for a year, I will write a six word memoir about the events that took place, my feelings, etc. Feel free to use this idea but please give me credit. Seriously. Give me credit.

  • April 29, 2012: Even when I'm awake, I'm sleeping.
  • April 30, 2012: Drowning in an ocean of sorrow.
  • May 1, 2012: Just another day of hating myself.
  • May 2, 2012: Can't get out of bed today.
  • May 3, 2012: Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
  • May 4, 2012: May the Fourth be with you!
  • May 5, 2012: Why don't people accept my voice?
  • May 6, 2012: I can't stand this shit anymore.
  • May 7, 2012: I know some truly beautiful people.
  • May 8, 2012: Fat fat fat fat fat fat.
  • May 9, 2012: It's so hard to get up.
  • May 10, 2012: I feel so much lighter today.
  • May 11, 2012: This is strange; another good day.
  • May 12, 2012: Days seem to be getting easier.
  • May 13, 2012: How can I sleep so much?!
  • May 14, 2012: This is really stressing me out.
  • May 15, 2012: I really want to kill myself.
  • May 16, 2012: The future is really scaring me.
  • May 17, 2012: Damn. I feel so goofy today.
  • May 18, 2012: Impossible to type with fake nails.
  • May 19, 2012: Prom. Prom. Prom. Prom. Prom. Prom.
  • May 20, 2012: Rather uneventful day. Starting to stress.
  • May 21, 2012: Totally fangirling over The Avengers. Hard.
  • May 22, 2012: I really want to just disappear.
  • May 23, 2012: Last day of solitude and freedom.
  • May 24, 2012: I really want it to end.
  • May 25, 2012: I am such a fucking loser.
  • May 26, 2012: From one end to the other.
  • May 27, 2012: I can't keep doing this anymore.
  • May 28, 2012: It's so hard to keep going.
  • May 29, 2012: I want to create something big.
  • May 30, 2012: I think I have officially cracked.
  • May 31, 2012: I am worthless. Piece of shit.
  • June 1, 2012: I wish I was fucking special.
  • June 2, 2012: Why can't I get shit done?
  • June 3, 2012: I need to start carpe-ing the diem.
  • June 4, 2012: Sometimes, I really hate the world.
  • June 5, 2012: Massages need to be daily occurrences.
  • June 6, 2012: I wish I was really beautiful.
  • June 7, 2012: I feel creativity coming my way.
  • June 8, 2012: I'm in a tornado of sadness.
  • June 9, 2012: Feeling pretty good today: not bad.
  • June 10, 2012: I'm all over the map today.
  • June 11, 2012: Can't I just stay happy? Please?
  • June 12, 2012: I wish my mom aborted me.
  • June 13, 2012: How can you people stand me?
  • June 14, 2012: Crappy weather makes me feel crappier.
  • June 15, 2012: The boys always make me smile.
  • June 16, 2012: A rather nice day for once.
  • June 17, 2012: I want to live up here.
  • June 18, 2012: Oh my god. The Pie Place.
  • June 19, 2012: I can't be your therapist, too.
  • June 20, 2012: Wah. Starting to feel really homesick.
  • June 21, 2012: Fuck you, rain. I miss home.
  • June 22, 2012: Hallelujah. Home sweet home. Let's sleep.
  • June 23, 2012: What's the point of living, anyway?
  • June 24, 2012: I'm so disappointing to my family.
  • June 25, 2012: Will time just slow down, please?
  • June 26, 2012: I wish I was just comatose.
  • June 27, 2012: Therapy can be so difficult sometimes.
  • June 28, 2012: I try so hard; doesn't show.
  • June 29, 2012: I'm feeling creative and well today.
  • June 30, 2012: Like a feather - how I feel.
  • July 1, 2012: Holy shit. It's July?! Since when?!
  • July 2, 2012: Another sad day. Will it end?
  • July 3, 2012: Get a fucking grip on yourself.
  • July 4, 2012: I eat, breathe, but don't feel.
  • July 5, 2012: I'm a nobody. Plain and simple.
  • July 6, 2012: I start out good, end bad.
  • July 7, 2012: I'm in a really bad place.
  • July 8, 2012: I really need to sleep tonight.
  • July 9, 2012: Um ya ya! Um ya ya!
  • July 10, 2012: I want to capture those feelings.
  • July 11, 2012: Even my therapist can't stand me.
  • July 12, 2012: I am worthless. Worthless. Worthless. Worthless.
  • July 13, 2012: I love being in the water.
  • July 14, 2012: What's the point of fighting anymore?
  • July 15, 2012: I want to kill myself. Badly.
  • July 16, 2012: I got some shit done today.
  • July 17, 2012: I am a worthless human being.
  • July 18, 2012: Need to run away from here.
  • July 19, 2012: I try so hard; no avail.
  • July 20, 2012: Oh, how I long to end.
  • July 21, 2012: These words just can't write themselves.
  • July 22, 2012: I don't want to grow old.
  • July 23, 2012: How long must I keep fighting?
  • July 24, 2012: I have started to cut again.
  • July 25, 2012: Jimmy Fallon and Justin Timberlake: bromance.
  • July 26, 2012: I don't want to do anything.
  • July 27, 2012: Where has my time been going?
  • July 28, 2012: I enjoy time with my friends.
  • July 29, 2012: I need to get a job.
  • July 30, 2012: A rather shitty epiphany occurred today.
  • July 31, 2012: How could anyone ever love me?
  • August 1, 2012: Holy shit. Is it seriously August already?!
  • August 2, 2012: I want to sleep it away.
  • August 3, 2012: Am I going to get better?
  • August 4, 2012: I had a rather light day.
  • August 5, 2012: I love spending time with grandparents.
  • August 6, 2012: Creative muse, please don't leave me.
  • August 7, 2012: I don't deserve to be happy.
  • August 8, 2012: Spiritual crisis: starting to not believe.
  • August 9, 2012: I am so fat and ugly.
  • August 10, 2012: Why do I even try anymore?
  • August 11, 2012: I am the most useless person.
  • August 12, 2012: Hopelessness is infecting my very being.
  • August 13, 2012: Today was a rather easy day.
  • August 14, 2012: I am my own worst enemy.
  • August 15, 2012: Empty words, hollow laughs, dead eyes.
  • August 16, 2012: Depressed depressed depressed depressed depressed depressed.
  • August 17, 2012: Can't breathe in this fucking house.
  • August 18, 2012: I want a bunch of hugs.
  • August 19, 2012: Rest in peace, great great Uncle.
  • August 20, 2012: I love learning my family's history.
  • August 21, 2012: I'm not fucking important at all.
  • August 22, 2012: I don't belong in my family.
  • August 23, 2012: How sweet it is to die.
  • August 24, 2012: Can I please wake up happy?
  • August 25, 2012: Put me out of my misery.
  • August 26, 2012: You are a major hypocritical bitch.
  • August 27, 2012: I need a bunch of hugs.
  • August 28, 2012: I got a little done today!
  • August 29, 2012: Fuck, I really want to die.
  • August 30, 2012: Am I that horrible a person?
  • August 31, 2012: I got a little done today
  • September 1, 2012: I can't fucking stand you anymore.
  • September 2, 2012: I got some stuff today. Yay.
  • September 3, 2012: My heart is aching with loneliness.
  • September 4, 2012: I just want to be happy.
  • September 5, 2012: Off meds: so far, so good.
  • September 6, 2012: Why can't I stop wasting away?
  • September 7, 2012: Depression is a mucus encasing me.
  • September 8, 2012: I just want to be loved.
  • September 9, 2012: How can I be so undesirable?
  • September 10, 2012: I am a big, fat loser.
  • September 11, 2012: Why does my stomach keep hurting?!
  • September 12, 2012: The internet is making me sad.
  • September 13, 2012: Why do so many hate me?
  • September 14, 2012: I just want to be amazing.
  • September 15, 2012: Feeling so inspired to get better.
  • September 16, 2012: Epiphany: my mom is emotionally abusive.
  • September 17, 2012: I try, yet to no avail.
  • September 18, 2012: I feel really good so far.
  • September 19, 2012: Please, Stevie. Just keep it up.
  • September 20, 2012: Today could've been better; still hoping.
  • September 21, 2012: Come on. You can do it.
  • September 22, 2012: Up and down, up and down.
  • September 23, 2012: Nobody would care if I died.
  • September 24, 2012: I will never change the world.
  • September 25, 2012: Sometimes, I just can't do it.
  • September 26, 2012: Full of loneliness, sorrow, and despair.
  • September 27, 2012: Really good day!!! No Internet, though.
  • September 28, 2012: A rather blah and lonely day.
  • September 29, 2012: My mother is a fucking cunt.
  • September 30, 2012: I just want to fade away.
  • October 1, 2012: Low day, but read a book.
  • October 2, 2012: Same lonely and sad feelings today.
  • October 3, 2012: Blah day. So many Delena feels.
  • October 4, 2012: Why can't I get anything done?!
  • October 5, 2012: Shitty day again. Maybe fun weekend?
  • October 6, 2012: I'm going to be alone forever.
  • October 7, 2012: Every. Single. Thing. Is. Fucking. Annoying.
  • October 8, 2012: Eh. I've been better, been worse.
  • October 9, 2012: So close to just giving up.
  • October 10, 2012: I wish I had a gun.
  • October 11, 2012: Crappy day, but omg Vampire Diaries.
  • October 12, 2012: I am sad and so lost.
  • October 13, 2012: Boo. I think I'm getting sick.
  • October 14, 2012: I really dislike having congested sinuses.
  • October 15, 2012: I fucking hate my fucking house.
  • October 16, 2012: I just really want to die.
  • October 17, 2012: Feeling a little bit better today.
  • October 18, 2012: Today was okay. Went to bookstore.
  • October 19, 2012: I had fun out and about.
  • October 20, 2012: I wish I were more independent.
  • October 21, 2012: Dyed my hair. It's so purrdy.
  • October 22, 2012: You make my life so negative.
  • October 23, 2012: I am just so butt ugly.
  • October 24, 2012: Hmm. Inspiration for horror short story?
  • October 25, 2012: Lazy days in bed are nice.
  • October 26, 2012: I feel like I'm spiralling again.
  • October 27, 2012: The party was actually really fun.
  • October 28, 2012: Today has been okay. Kinda sad.
  • October 29, 2012: I'm not having a good day.
  • October 30, 2012: I wish I wasn't so sad.
  • October 31, 2012: So close to just giving up.
  • November 1, 2012: Day one of NaNoWriMo. I'm fucked.
  • November 2, 2012: A good day of writing. Whoo!
  • November 3, 2012: Could have been better. So irritable.
  • November 4, 2012: A good mood today. Feels nice.
  • November 5, 2012: Lighter mood, but still rather melancholic.
  • November 6, 2012: FUCKING ELECTION. Besides that, good mood.
  • November 7, 2012: I'm just so bitter and grumpy.
  • November 8, 2012: I feel like I'm falling behind.
  • November 9, 2012: Nostalgia and melancholy don't mix well.
  • November 10, 2012: Do you want me to fail?!
  • November 11, 2012: I really just want to die.
  • November 12, 2012: A spark of hope can deceive.
  • November 13, 2012: I miss being carefree and young.
  • November 14, 2012: Going back to one middle name!
  • November 15, 2012: I kinda sorta want a boyfriend.
  • November 16, 2012: My loneliness has become quite overwhelming.
  • November 17, 2012: No wonder why people hate me.
  • November 18, 2012: I just want to be loved.
  • November 19, 2012: Living is becoming such a chore.
  • November 20, 2012: Life is becoming way too overwhelming.
  • November 21, 2012: So sad, so lonely, so done.
  • November 22, 2012: Today was actually a good day.
  • November 23, 2012: Why must you bring me down?!
  • November 24, 2012: Life of Pi was so amazing.
  • November 25, 2012: I feel so alone and depressed.
  • November 26, 2012: I want to die so badly.
  • November 27, 2012: Feeling empty, lonely, and just sad.
  • November 28, 2012: Why can't the world just stop?
  • November 29, 2012: Just let me feel happy. Please.
  • November 30, 2012: I just really fucking hate you.
  • December 1, 2012: Feeling so suicidal. Please kill me.
  • December 2, 2012: Why can't I just die?! Please?!
    • Note: tried to kill myself on this day.
  • December 3, 2012: Well. Here I am. Getting better?
  • December 4, 2012: This feels like a bad dream.
  • December 5, 2012: Well, we have a new plan.
  • December 6, 2012: It all still feels so surreal.
  • December 7, 2012: Please stop please stop please stop.
  • December 8, 2012: Repainted my room mint green today.
  • December 9, 2012: The days are still really hard.
  • December 10, 2012: I want to write something amazing.
  • December 11, 2012: So much cool shit I want.
  • December 12, 2012: Life is so hard. I can't.
  • December 13, 2012: The future scares me so much.
  • December 14, 2012: My thoughts with Connecticut and China.
  • December 15, 2012: Anxiety is overwhelming and a plague.
  • December 16, 2012: I wish I felt better now.
  • December 17, 2012: First day alone in a while.
  • December 18, 2012: Oh my god so fucking weird.
  • December 19, 2012: I feel so unimportant and worthless.
  • December 20, 2012: I really just want to die.
  • December 21, 2012: My life is just wasting away.
  • December 22, 2012: I don't like being so lonely.
  • December 23, 2012: Fuck my life. I'm so depressed.
  • December 24, 2012: Feelings of nostalgia making me sad.
  • December 25, 2012: Anxious and low. Nothing new there.
  • December 26, 2012: I'm such a horrible, awful person.
  • December 27, 2012: So much stress. So little happiness.
  • December 28, 2012: I just want a perfect life.
  • December 29, 2012: Sigh. Just going through the motions.
  • December 30, 2012: Can't stop stressing. Make it stop.
  • December 31, 2012: Today was okayish but still low.
  • January 1, 2013: I can't believe it's not 2012.
  • January 2, 2013: Today was a bad fucking day.
  • January 3, 2013: I just really need a hug.
  • January 4, 2013: Forever alone. That's me. Crying. Why?
  • January 5, 2013: I feel like I'm rotting away.
  • January 6, 2013: My life is just slipping away.
  • January 7, 2013: Slowly, painfully, suffocating. I give up.
  • January 8, 2013: I feel so sad and alone.
  • January 9, 2013: I am a waste of space.
  • January 10, 2013: I'm never going to get better.
  • January 11, 2013: Today was good. Not as low.
  • January 12, 2013: I am such a horrible daughter.
  • January 13, 2013: This house is gonna kill me.
  • January 14, 2013: Today was actually really, really good.
  • January 15, 2013: Good moods never last for long.
  • January 16, 2013: I'm trapped on a sinking ship.
  • January 17, 2013: You're the reason I'm so miserable.
  • January 18, 2013: My week has just been miserable.
  • January 19, 2013: I am just an after thought.
  • January 20, 2013: My life just has no purpose.
  • January 21, 2013: Well, my room is looking nice.
  • January 22, 2013: I give but nobody gives back.
  • January 23, 2013: I don't know what I'm doing.
  • January 24, 2013: My life is just wasting away.
  • January 25, 2013: Nobody would care if I died.
  • January 26, 2013: Today has been a positive day.
  • January 27, 2013: I wish I felt more important.
  • January 28, 2013: I think I want to act.
  • January 29, 2013: The universe must really hate me.
  • January 30, 2013: My life doesn't have any meaning.
  • January 31, 2013: I don't want to keep living.
  • February 1, 2013: Maybe, hopefully, I'll start reading again.
  • February 2, 2013: I am just so fucking depressed.
  • February 3, 2013: I kinda hate everybody right now.
  • February 4, 2013: Trying so hard to be compassionate.
  • February 5, 2013: It's just never enough, is it?
  • February 6, 2013: Today was good. Had an epiphany.
  • February 7, 2013: A rather okay, but lazy, day.
  • __February 8, 2013:__Nothing nothing nothing all day long.
  • February 9, 2013: Ugh. I need to eat better.
  • February 10, 2013: Lazy and sad, lazy and sad.
  • February 11, 2013: I kinda love getting spoiled. Hehe.
  • February 12, 2013: I don't want to grow up.
  • February 13, 2013: You ruined my life. Thank you.
  • February 14, 2013: Forever alone. And without Internet. Boo.
  • February 15, 2013: I just want it to end.
  • February 16, 2013: Tries to help, you don't care.
  • February 17, 2013: Stop taking it out on me.
  • February 18, 2013: I just hate it all now.
  • February 19, 2013: I can't keep living this way.
  • February 20, 2013: I really, REALLY loved The Hobbit.
  • February 21, 2013: I want to create something great.
  • February 22, 2013: Lazy day in bed with Supernatural.
  • February 23, 2013: Yet another day spent in bed.
  • February 24, 2013: Life is going slowly, yet quickly.
  • February 25, 2013: I keep getting so anxious lately.
  • February 26, 2013: Today wasn't such a bad day.
  • February 27, 2013: I feel all over the place.
  • February 28, 2013: My mood was a little better.
  • March 1, 2013: I feel so apathetic and exhausted.
  • March 2, 2013: High and low, around I go.
  • March 3, 2013: I just want to give up.
  • March 4, 2013: Panic and anxiety are plaguing me.
  • March 5, 2013: My life truly has no meaning.
  • March 6, 2013: Richard Armitage is so fucking delicious
  • March 7, 2013: I feel like I'm brain dead.
  • March 8, 2013 Overwhelmed by anxiety, despair, and nostalgia.
  • March 9, 2013: I feel so all alone. Sigh.
  • March 10, 2013: My heart just feels so heavy.
  • March 11, 2013: My whole being is so exhausted.
  • March 12, 2013: I simply have nothing to offer.
  • March 13, 2013: I don't know what to do.
  • March 14, 2013: Happy(?) birthday. Went by too fast.
  • March 15, 2013: Post birthday blues... They really suck.
  • March 16, 2013: I'm sinking... Sinking... Sinking... Help me.
  • March 17, 2013: Today was a little bit lighter.
  • March 18, 2013: I'm dying from anxiety and sadness.
  • March 19, 2013: Every attempt at getting better fails.
  • March 20, 2013: I want to create something amazing.
  • March 21, 2013: Put me out of my misery.
  • March 22, 2013: Day by day, I'm slowly dying.
  • March 23, 2013: Another wasted day. Just kill me.
  • March 24, 2013: Way too attached to fictional characters.
  • March 25, 2013: The casino has been pretty fun.
  • March 26, 2013: Reality comes crashing, hard and fast.
  • March 27, 2013: Everything just needs to stop now.
  • March 28, 2013: It feels like I'm brain dead.
  • March 29, 2013: I try so hard to help.
  • March 30, 2013: Read a book today. That's good.
  • March 31, 2013: You always treat me like shit!!
  • April 1, 2013: A little more productive than usual.
  • April 2, 2013: You are the reason I'm miserable.
  • April 3, 2013: Today was a pretty good day.
  • April 4, 2013: I never stay up for long.
  • April 5, 2013: I feel myself falling down again.
  • April 6, 2013: Another sad, lonely, and uneventful day.
  • April 7, 2013: I'm just a waste of space.
  • April 8, 2013: I love seeing movies with Grandma.
  • April 9, 2013: My life has absolutely no meaning.
  • April 10, 2013: Kinda up and down, but okay.
  • April 11, 2013: I can't take this miserable life.
  • April 12, 2013: This melancholy is becoming rather monotonous.
  • April 13, 2013: Why can't I sleep all day?
  • April 14, 2013: I just want to waste away.
  • April 15, 2013: The weather is keeping me down.
  • April 16, 2013: Finally I have a decent day.
  • April 17, 2013: It's so hard to get up.
  • April 18, 2013: I'm just so pathetic and lazy.
  • April 19, 2013: Drowning, although I feel so empty.
  • April 20, 2013: I'm such a lazy, putrid slug.
  • April 21, 2013: I'm never going to find love.
  • April 22, 2013: Living in this house is smothering.
  • April 23, 2013: I just want to write something.
  • April 24, 2013: I wish opening up was easier.
  • April 25, 2013: It gets exhausting to keep trying.
  • April 26, 2013: I wish I was more appealing.
  • April 27, 2013: I really hate who I am.
  • April 28, 2013: I'm sorry for being a failure.
  • April 29, 2013: This year has been completely miserable.
apr 29 2012 ∞
jan 30 2014 +
user picture Jess: Mind if I use this idea? I'll credit :) apr 30 2012
user picture vagabond: Go ahead :)
user picture devon: This idea is lovely and I love it! The last memoir... not so much. :( But I feel the same sometimes. may 15 2012
user picture vagabond: <3 Feel free to do one like this. may 16 2012
user picture Jenni: Even though I don't know you, I can tell by simply reading lists you make that you're an amazing person. You don't deserve to be thinking these things about yourself. Please, please remember that it's people like you that the world needs more of and that there are so many people who care. Chin up friend! No one can make you be happy but we can let you know you have full support. (a fantastic list idea by the way[:)
user picture vagabond: Wow, that is so kind of you to say that. It truly means a lot. Thank you. :)
user picture Jenni: You're very welcome, it needed to be said! may 18 2012
user picture devon: I saw the Avengers with a friend this weekend. IT WAS AMAZING. Spider-Man had always been the only "superhero" type movies I'd watch, but now... I WANT MORE. And not because of the delicious men in it, either... ;) may 21 2012
user picture vagabond: UGH. Do NOT get me started on the delicious specimens in that film. I am totally obsessed with Tom Hiddleston (he played Loki) right now. Unfunfunfunfunf. bahahaha.
user picture devon: YES. I'm watching War Horse in class at school and he played in it and I recognized him... Good Lord, I squealed in the middle of the movie! And I wouldn't mind Captain America, The Hulk, Thor, or Iron Man, either. <3333 Daaaaang. I could hardly focus on the actual movie.
user picture Angie: STEVIEE <3 First of all, I MISS YOUUUUUUU. Secondly, even if you think you are worthless, you are not to me (and others). Love you. may 31 2012
user picture vagabond: ANGIEE. I CAN'T WAIT TILL AUGUST SO YOU'RE ON MORE, YOU LOVELY LOVELY GIRL.
user picture devon: I know I don't count for much, but I think you're really beautiful, Stevie. For real, for real. <3333333 jun 8 2012
user picture Bailey: Are we the same person? Most of these thoughts are my own daily thoughts xD jun 26 2012
user picture Candace: Derpina loves you. Remember that. : ) <3 aug 25 2012
user picture Cristal: You seem like a really awesome person! And you do matter and are special to people, never think that you are not. And, I don't know if you are religious or anything but always know God loves you and He created you for a reason! ; ) sep 4 2012
user picture Cecilia: Stay strong, Stevie! You don't deserve to have such negative thoughts. Remind yourself that you are strong, kind, beautiful, and talented because it's true <3 oct 11 2012
user picture honeybee: I love you, just so you know. ♥ jan 31 2013
user picture caroline: hey darling, keep your head up! mar 17 2013
user picture devon: You're lovely, Stevie. mar 18 2013
user picture CrownedBrunette: Hello there! ^-^ I just wanted to let you know that I found your idea from jennyx and will be stealing the idea as well. I really love this idea! I'll be giving you credit in the post. =) apr 21 2013
user picture Cecilia: Hey, Stevie! I haven't talk to you in a while, but I have been thinking about you. I'm sorry to see that you're not feeling real dandy ): But I discovered something called ASMR and I thought that you might be interested in it. Here's info. on it... http://knowyourmeme.com/memes/autonomous-sensory-meridian-response-asmr If you look up ASMR videos on YouTube, you might think they're very calming/reduce stress/anxiety. So I thought I'd bring it up to you :) Apparently, ASMR videos are a big thing right now ^.^ may 3 2013
user picture Cecilia: (Shoot, I wasn't done typing! XP) Anyway, I like ASMR videos... usually people who like having their hair brushed, getting their hair cut, or getting massaged, etc. and think it's relaxing like ASMR videos :)