"april. month of dust and lies."

ups

• all the seasons of "adorável psicose" are available on now!
• a possible new love interest for meredith! (and this one i actually like)
• chatting with matthew
• the walking dead season finale
• watching a quiet place with mom & eve at the theaters.
• throwing a party for noah.
• sarinha
• buying amazon-stick so i can finally watch netflix again!
• buying some books i wanted for a long time at a decent price.
• fear the walking dead & the walking dead crossover, finally!
• the sims 4
• LA CASA DEL PAPEL!
• meeting tim and having a nice time together.

downs

• feeling sad and uncertain about the test.
• feeling hopeless about my job and where my life is heading.
• crying about the past
• i hate my life, i hate myself, i have no hopes and dreams, i've wasted all my good years
• i broke up with d. we had nothing in common, honestly, but i hope we stay friends.
• getting super sick with the flu.
• trying to keep my head on the ground and stop thinking i found "the one" just because the guy is so much like me! stop it stop it stop it!!!!!!!!!!!
  • remember freud'a definition of insanity: "the definition of insanity is repeating the same mistakes over and over again and expecting different results"
• migraine & earache all day long.
• feeling more and more like the characters from the book i'm reading. an agoraphobic woman lost inside her own mind.
• didn't feel like i accomplished anything worth it this month or in life...

crushes

• natalia klein
• ioan gruffudd
• john patrick amedori
• john krasinski
• berlim & professor

obsessions

• adorável psicose
• animal crossing pocket camp (still!)
• harrow
• i kill giants
• the sims 4
• la casa del papel

health

• 02. meditation on self-care
• 03. walking

crisis

• 02. cried
• 09. cried - i miss the old me, i miss g, i miss having hopes and dreams.
• what i want a love to be

special dates

• 9. gerard way's birthday
• 18. noah's birthday (i can't believe he's turning 10)