reasons why

• my life feels like a bad movie on replay
• i don't know how to change it
• i don't know if i can change it
• no friends in "real life"
• no one cares for me, except mom and my dog
• everyone i like is far away, don't give a shit, or don't know i exist
• i hate my career
• bad choices, all the time
• bad people happening to things like me
• no talent
• sick of taking pills to exist
• depression, anxiety, borderline
• nothing changes
• nothing changes
• nothing changes

reasons why not

• what if it doesn't end here?
• what if i fail and end up disabled?
• art - music, tv shows, movies, books
• mom
• noah