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awaiting
perpetually and forever
a renaissance of wonder

bookmarks:
gideon autobio (year 30)
anna travel (spain 2024 updated)
ivyink places (london 2024)
rosie to do (the great postgrad to do list)
berlingot about me (❀ currently)
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  • Type Four: The Individualist
  • Type Four, Five Wing: The Bohemian
  • Basic Fear: That they have no identity or personal significance
  • Basic Desire: To find themselves and their significance (to create an identity)
  • Key Motivations:
    • Want to express themselves and their individuality
    • to create and surround themselves with beauty
    • to maintain certain moods and feelings
    • to withdraw to protect their self-image
    • to take care of emotional needs before attending to anything else, to attract a "rescuer."
  • Examples
    • Alanis Morrisette
    • Jeremy Irons
    • Sarah McLachlan
    • Joseph Fiennes
    • Bob Dylan
    • Johnny Depp
    • Anne Rice
    • J.D. Salinger
    • Anais Nin
    • Tennessee Williams
    • Edgar Allan Poe
    • Virginia Woolf
    • Prince
    • Michael Jackson
    • Sylvia Plath
    • Meryl Streep
    • Kate Winslet
    • Edith Piaf
    • Kurt Cobain
    • Blanche DuBois A Streetcar Named Desire
  • Positive Traits
    • my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
    • my ability to establish warm connections with people
    • admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
    • my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
    • being unique and being seen as unique by others
    • having aesthetic sensibilities
    • being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me
  • Negative Traits
    • experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
    • feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
    • feeling guilty when I disappoint people
    • feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
    • expecting too much from myself and life
    • fearing being abandoned
    • obsessing over resentments
    • longing for what I don't have

LEVELS

  • Healthy Levels
    • Level 1 (At Their Best): Profoundly creative, expressing the personal and the universal, possibly in a work of art. Inspired, self-renewing and regenerating: able to transform all their experiences into something valuable: self-creative.
    • Level 2: Self-aware, introspective, on the "search for self," aware of feelings and inner impulses. Sensitive and intuitive both to self and others: gentle, tactful, compassionate.
    • Level 3: Highly personal, individualistic, "true to self." Self-revealing, emotionally honest, humane. Ironic view of self and life: can be serious and funny, vulnerable and emotionally strong.
  • Average Levels
    • Level 4: Take an artistic, romantic orientation to life, creating a beautiful, aesthetic environment to cultivate and prolong personal feelings. Heighten reality through fantasy, passionate feelings, and the imagination.
    • Level 5: To stay in touch with feelings, they interiorize everything, taking everything personally, but become self-absorbed and introverted, moody and hypersensitive, shy and self-conscious, unable to be spontaneous or to "get out of themselves." Stay withdrawn to protect their self-image and to buy time to sort out feelings.
    • Level 6: Gradually think that they are different from others, and feel that they are exempt from living as everyone else does. They become melancholy dreamers, disdainful, decadent, and sensual, living in a fantasy world. Self-pity and envy of others leads to self-indulgence, and to becoming increasingly impractical, unproductive, effete, and precious.
  • Unhealthy Levels
    • Level 7: When dreams fail, become self-inhibiting and angry at self, depressed and alienated from self and others, blocked and emotionally paralyzed. Ashamed of self, fatigued and unable to function.
    • Level 8: Tormented by delusional self-contempt, self-reproaches, self-hatred, and morbid thoughts: everything is a source of torment. Blaming others, they drive away anyone who tries to help them.
    • Level 9: Despairing, feel hopeless and become self-destructive, possibly abusing alcohol or drugs to escape. In the extreme: emotional breakdown or suicide is likely. Generally corresponds to the Avoidant, Depressive, and Narcissistic personality disorders.
apr 30 2012 ∞
jan 1 2016 +