I want to document what has made me cry. I'm not sure how long this will stay public but for now, it's up. I don't think I'll explain my feelings 'cuz otherwise, this would be privated on the second day haha. I'll just put it out there and you can surmise yourself. Started March 6th 2012.

short/ long films:

• Kony 2012 by Invisible Children. Ws on my tumblr dashboard via Marie G.. Honestly the best short film I've seen in awhile. I learned a lot about Joseph Kony's horrible actions against the children of Africa: the sex slavery, the abductions, the soldier-making. Disgusting. I hope he gets shut down and arrested soon. Do watch. 3/6/2012 at 4:30pm ish.
• watching Demi Lovato's documentary "stay strong" on her breakdown and treatment on MTV. I was touched but I really teared when she said "I didn't think I(t?) could get better" when she rang in the new year in treatment. teared 3/6/2012 at 11:30pm-12:30 am

Seeing this photo:

• Trayvon Martin's childhood photos. Teared.

reading these words:

• "I'm calling you cookie 'cuz some cookies have nuts in them... you have some nut in you. Nut as in crazy. bwahahaha. Smart isn't it." when he annoying called me cookie while I was trying to ignore him. On gchat. 3/7/2012 at night. teared.
• friends with benefits thought catalog article. Teared. Couldn't finish it at all.
• teared slightly at the words "never" and "fetish" as I was typing on the screen at 2:51am and 2:54am on 3/12/12 for the first bullet point under thoughts...
• wrote a long ass post, teared throughout it. tweets as well, and actually, i haven't been keeping track 'cuz it's been so frequent, so about a month i skipped but i'll restart today at 4/11/2012, i just hope it isn't as repitious and i can handle typing it all out 'cuz when i thought about recording it down, it just brought me to tears further... ugh.

thinking these thoughts:

• 3/11/12 11:48 - tearing (not verbatim): "He didn't want to listen to me. Didn't want to hear my problems at all. Didn't want to get stressed. Wouldn't let me talk about it. Didn't want to try." 11:56 - bawling "He didn't want a relationship. Never did. He didn't want to try at all. Never occurred to him that I wanted more. He never wanted more. 20 months and never wanted me as his girlfriend at all. Never supported me really. I wasn't good enough for him. Never met his family or met his friends on purpose. I was just a fetish." There probably is bit more but yeah. ended 12:06am

I... don't know if this is good but I want to keep a list of happy tears. At least those I know can only benefit me. I'll do it at some point later.