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bookmarks:
littlewhitehouse FILMS (watched in 2025)
gigi tv
cedar (currently)
elihomicidal books (✩ Manga, comics, books 2025)
brookie! ♡ 2025 (calendar)
우주소녀 ivyink
Amanda j u n o
Apartmentcat jai
Aspen jam
Bea jax
Bianca jay
Bliss jayne.
Brie jen
Bru julia
Bárbara julie
Candice Austen julyana
Cat just a girl
Edii jéssica
Elise júlia
EstroJen k
FER k. e. bigelow
Gelly kaitlin
Han kales
IBelieveInPen... kaori
JJ kari
Jenni katya
Júlia keetanlaani
Kate kelly ୭ৎ
Katrina kellylouise
Kay koi
Kelsey kurispie
Kelsey kye
Kiskadee lagoon
Lari landon
Laurene lari
Luciana lataefah
Maggie laughing lady...
Matsu lauren
Oh! lee
Origan letícia
Panda lie
Rebecca lila
Rhiannon lili
Ryan liraz
Sarah lisa
Shannon lissa
Sore listography
Stavros littlewhitehouse
StormFyrie liz
V lo
Venisse lois
Vicky louise
Wolf love
a ~ lua f.
abby luci
ace luiza
aivin lulu
alexandra lunna
alexia m.
alexithymia maha
alice o'bright maia
ally maido
amber malu
amy mapholie
ana marah
andie marcella
ane marcella
angel maria
angie marido
anisha marina
anna marruá
anna mau
anna max
antoinette maxy
ara mei
arantxa mezzo piano
aria meℓina and th...
ash mia
aster miana
atlas michelle
ayden mila
azu mimi
baba yaga miya
babylove mmurklins
baroqueen monday
bea! moon
beable moon
bee moony
bel morimoonie
belle moute
berlingot mæria
bia na
bianca nai
birdie nana
birdsong nana
blair nathália
bloodbride nessa
blume nic
bonafini nina
brigtter nina
broccomilie nix
brookie! no one
c nyanbot
callie ohdeer
cariatide pam
carol peaches
caroline petra
caroline priscila
caroline pétala
cassie rae
cedar raxaaa
cee riho
ch. rika
chan ro
chrissy rodi
christina rose
cig runa
clare ruptures
cláudia s.
coleen s.
constelacione... s. n.
crobat sam
czar selena
d shakti
daisy shannon
damien shosanna
dani shug avery
dayna silverb
debs skudge
derura ihi skye
dina sloane
doki. sms
e soel
eden sofia
eleven softie
eli sophie
elihomicidal speedtrials
elise steph
elizabeth sumire
ella tana
elle tanan
elodie tanja
em tay
emi tenneil
emi the traveler
emily tigerhead
emma tori
encre tori
endlessness u
envy valeyvonne
enya vee
eri vetica
erika vi
estella vices
esther vicky
evan vickye
evelyn vitória
fallon vizy
fefa whit
felipe willow
fernanda with a cherry...
fia yuu
florrie zai
furiousrose zoey
ʚɞ
gabs ୨୧
georgia rose
gideon
gigi ᴠɪʀɢᴏ
giulia ℋosho
halinka
hayley ℬlade
homura ユノ
honeybee
humi
hunni 乙女解剖
hyena
iana 絵梨
immagina
inara
isa ꜱᴀᴡʏᴇʀ
isabella 알바
its words

j u n e .

  • week 1 (june 8-14) » Liene is back at the ward and it's upsetting/triggering me; my psychiatrist thinks I have BPD (I agree with her); abandonment fears because of a new doctor and being moved to a different ward; crisis averted - my psych continues being my psych even in a different ward; finally a good mood; mom brought a lot of food; i'm getting discharged next week; coffee at 8AM; oculogyric crisis
  • week 2 (june 15-21) » anxiety; lexotanil; whatsapp group chat "tvaika bērni"; got discharged; no pharmacy had ypsila, but I got an alternative (though it cost 7€); stated reading joel dicker's novel; reunited with my cat; roatrip during the weekend; finally home
  • week 3 (june 22-28) » sleepless night; midsummer; bought the haunting of hill house book; mom angry at me; trying to get high from a nasal syrup; awake mega super early; major restless legs, cyclodol abuse; visited grandma with family

j u l y .

  • week 4 (june 29-july 5) » four sedative meds before sleep and i finally slept; extreme irritability; med abuse; feeling guilty; modern family; drove to help grandma with her store; family road trip to Cesvaine and Madona; OGC
  • week 5 (july 6-12) » OGC; sister visiting; affectionate with Amy; modern family; a new coloring book; walking in rain and out of breath
  • week 6 (july 13-19) » watching the good doctor; splitting on a friend; feeling abandoned by my therapist; feeling better than before; taking meds as prescribed every day; uncle's yacht party; funeral; sister visiting; sister's cat's death; caur ērkšķiem uz; being excited to take each cyclodol dose
  • week 7 (july 20-26) » toy story 4 with sister; vacation at a manor; psych appointment through phone; lithuania and lidl; finished all caur ērkšķiem uz; started the vampire diaries; read the haunting of hill house
  • week 8 (july 27 - august 2) » name day; a new book; crab salad; četri uz koferiem; coke with lemon; cleaned the flat; the vampire diaries; bolt food; spider in the study room; 6 mg bromazepam; gin & tonic; stole xanax; bought DXM; mood is going down

a u g u s t .

  • week 9 (august 4-9) » helping grandma at the store; OGC but cyclodol helped; anxiety sparks; drinking plum juice at night; playing cards; cousin's dinner; buying a gross wine bottle and getting the cork stuck inside; a new book; nanograms and sudoku; OGC; back home.
  • week 10 (august 10-16) » DXM; met up with a friend; therapy in person for the first time in months; DXM; sister visiting; ordering mcd; ordering pizza
  • week 11 (august 17-23) » slept for 16 hours; saw palm springs at the move theater with mom; cleaned the whole flat; gave beer a chance; insomnia; mild psychosis; relapse; artane; a new phone case that has xanax on it; started journalling again; med increase
  • week 12 (august 24-30) » at grandma's with cousin; DXM; OGC; playing cards; kebabs; brooklyn nine nine; sweet potato fries; a lot of laughing; good night's sleep

s e p t e m b e r

  • week 13 (august 31-september 6) » apple cider; depressed; cleaning my flat with mom; paranoia; loneliness; reading midnight sun; staying away from substances
  • week 14 (september 7-13) » uni lectures; staying at parents; job offer; stealing meds; getting used psych books from facebook; missing a night dose of meds; helping grandma at the store; hallucinations
  • week 15 (september 14-20) » x-factor; irritability; lectures; my kettle broke; kitchen table in the bedroom; anxiety
  • week 16 (september 21-27) » visiting parent's, excel job, DXM, OGC
  • week 17 (septmber 28-october 4) » ordering KFC; scheduled an appointment with my drama therapist
  • week 18 (septmber 5-11) » visiting mom, DXM, bly manor on netflix, good therapy session
jun 14 2020 ∞
sep 30 2021 +