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a ~ travel (current daydreams)
tay music (favorite lyrics)
music (favorite albums)
love movies (2025)
rose podcasts (june 2025)
우주소녀 ivyink
Amanda iyilik
Apartmentcat j u n o
Aspen jai
Bea jam
Bianca jax
Bliss jay
Brie jayne.
Bru jen
Bárbara julia
Candice Austen julie
Cat julyana
Edii just a girl
Elise jéssica
EstroJen júlia
FER k. e. bigelow
Gelly kaitlin
Han kales
IBelieveInPen... kaori
JJ kari
Jenni katya
Júlia keetanlaani
Kate kelly ୭ৎ
Katrina kellylouise
Kay koi
Kelsey kurispie
Kelsey kye
Kiskadee lagoon
Lari lari
Laurene lataefah
Luciana laughing lady...
Maggie lauren
Matsu leo
Misha letícia
Oh! lie
Origan lila
Panda liraz
Rebecca lisa
Rhiannon lissa
Ryan listography
Sarah littlewhitehouse
Shannon liz
Sore lois
Stavros louise
StormFyrie love
V lua f.
Venisse luci
Vicky luiza
a ~ lulu
abby lunna
ace m.
aivin maha
alexandra maia
alexia maido
alexithymia malu
alice o'bright mapholie
ally marah
amber marcella
ana marcella
andie maria
ane marido
angel marina
angie marruá
anisha mau
anna max
anna mei
anna mezzo piano
anna meℓina and th...
antoinette mia
ara miana
arantxa michelle
aria mila
aster mimi
atlas miya
ayden mmurklins
azu monday
baba yaga moon
babylove moon
baroqueen moony
bea! morimoonie
beable moute
bee mæria
bel na
belle nai
berlingot nana
bia nana
bianca nathália
birdie nessa
birdsong nic
blair nina
bloodbride nina
bonafini no one
brigtter nyanbot
broccomilie ohdeer
brookie! pam
c peaches
callie petra
cariatide priscila
carol pétala
caroline rae
caroline rae
caroline raxaaa
cassie riho
cedar rika
cee rodi
ch. rosa
chrissy rose
christina ruptures
clare s.
cláudia s.
coleen s. n.
colove sam
constelacione... selena
czar seraph
d shakti
daisy shannon
damien shosanna
dani shug avery
dayna silverb
debs skudge
derura ihi skye
dina sloane
doki. sms
e soel
e sofia
eden softie
eleven sophie
eli speedtrials
elihomicidal steph
elise sumire
elizabeth tana
ella tanan
elle tanja
elodie tay
em tenneil
emi the traveler
emi tigerhead
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emma tori
encre u
endlessness vee
envy vetica
enya vi
erika vices
estella vicky
esther vickye
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evelyn vizy
fallon whit
fefa willow
felipe with a cherry...
fernanda yuu
florrie zai
furiousrose zoey
ʚɞ
gabs
georgia rose
gideon ᴠɪʀɢᴏ
gigi ℋosho
giulia
halinka えりい
hayley より
homura ユノ
honeybee
humi
hyena 乙女解剖
iana
immagina
inara
isa ꜱᴀᴡʏᴇʀ
isabella 알바
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j u n e .

  • week 1 (june 8-14) » Liene is back at the ward and it's upsetting/triggering me; my psychiatrist thinks I have BPD (I agree with her); abandonment fears because of a new doctor and being moved to a different ward; crisis averted - my psych continues being my psych even in a different ward; finally a good mood; mom brought a lot of food; i'm getting discharged next week; coffee at 8AM; oculogyric crisis
  • week 2 (june 15-21) » anxiety; lexotanil; whatsapp group chat "tvaika bērni"; got discharged; no pharmacy had ypsila, but I got an alternative (though it cost 7€); stated reading joel dicker's novel; reunited with my cat; roatrip during the weekend; finally home
  • week 3 (june 22-28) » sleepless night; midsummer; bought the haunting of hill house book; mom angry at me; trying to get high from a nasal syrup; awake mega super early; major restless legs, cyclodol abuse; visited grandma with family

j u l y .

  • week 4 (june 29-july 5) » four sedative meds before sleep and i finally slept; extreme irritability; med abuse; feeling guilty; modern family; drove to help grandma with her store; family road trip to Cesvaine and Madona; OGC
  • week 5 (july 6-12) » OGC; sister visiting; affectionate with Amy; modern family; a new coloring book; walking in rain and out of breath
  • week 6 (july 13-19) » watching the good doctor; splitting on a friend; feeling abandoned by my therapist; feeling better than before; taking meds as prescribed every day; uncle's yacht party; funeral; sister visiting; sister's cat's death; caur ērkšķiem uz; being excited to take each cyclodol dose
  • week 7 (july 20-26) » toy story 4 with sister; vacation at a manor; psych appointment through phone; lithuania and lidl; finished all caur ērkšķiem uz; started the vampire diaries; read the haunting of hill house
  • week 8 (july 27 - august 2) » name day; a new book; crab salad; četri uz koferiem; coke with lemon; cleaned the flat; the vampire diaries; bolt food; spider in the study room; 6 mg bromazepam; gin & tonic; stole xanax; bought DXM; mood is going down

a u g u s t .

  • week 9 (august 4-9) » helping grandma at the store; OGC but cyclodol helped; anxiety sparks; drinking plum juice at night; playing cards; cousin's dinner; buying a gross wine bottle and getting the cork stuck inside; a new book; nanograms and sudoku; OGC; back home.
  • week 10 (august 10-16) » DXM; met up with a friend; therapy in person for the first time in months; DXM; sister visiting; ordering mcd; ordering pizza
  • week 11 (august 17-23) » slept for 16 hours; saw palm springs at the move theater with mom; cleaned the whole flat; gave beer a chance; insomnia; mild psychosis; relapse; artane; a new phone case that has xanax on it; started journalling again; med increase
  • week 12 (august 24-30) » at grandma's with cousin; DXM; OGC; playing cards; kebabs; brooklyn nine nine; sweet potato fries; a lot of laughing; good night's sleep

s e p t e m b e r

  • week 13 (august 31-september 6) » apple cider; depressed; cleaning my flat with mom; paranoia; loneliness; reading midnight sun; staying away from substances
  • week 14 (september 7-13) » uni lectures; staying at parents; job offer; stealing meds; getting used psych books from facebook; missing a night dose of meds; helping grandma at the store; hallucinations
  • week 15 (september 14-20) » x-factor; irritability; lectures; my kettle broke; kitchen table in the bedroom; anxiety
  • week 16 (september 21-27) » visiting parent's, excel job, DXM, OGC
  • week 17 (septmber 28-october 4) » ordering KFC; scheduled an appointment with my drama therapist
  • week 18 (septmber 5-11) » visiting mom, DXM, bly manor on netflix, good therapy session
jun 14 2020 ∞
sep 30 2021 +