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bookmarks:
JJ 2025 (Films)
絵梨 wishlist&goals
emi media (to watch - 2025)
leo shows (2025)
crobat agenda
우주소녀 its
Amanda ivyink
Apartmentcat j u n o
Aspen jai
Bea jam
Bianca jax
Bliss jay
Brie jayne.
Bru jen
Bárbara julia
Candice Austen julie
Cat julyana
Edii just a girl
Elise jéssica
EstroJen júlia
FER k
Gelly k. e. bigelow
Han kaitlin
IBelieveInPen... kales
JJ kaori
Jenni kari
Júlia katya
Kate keetanlaani
Katrina kelly ୭ৎ
Kay kellylouise
Kelsey koi
Kelsey kurispie
Kiskadee kye
Lari lagoon
Laurene lari
Luciana lataefah
Maggie laughing lady...
Matsu lauren
Misha lee
Oh! leo
Origan letícia
Panda lie
Rebecca lila
Rhiannon lili
Ryan liraz
Sarah lisa
Shannon lissa
Sore listography
Stavros littlewhitehouse
StormFyrie liz
V lo
Venisse lois
Vicky louise
a ~ love
abby lua f.
ace luci
aivin luiza
alexandra lulu
alexia lunna
alexithymia m.
alice o'bright maha
ally maia
amber maido
amy malu
ana mapholie
andie marah
ane marcella
angel marcella
angie maria
anisha marido
anna marina
anna marruá
anna mau
antoinette max
ara maxy
arantxa mei
aria mezzo piano
ash meℓina and th...
aster mia
atlas miana
ayden michelle
azu mila
baba yaga mimi
babylove miya
baroqueen mmurklins
bea! monday
beable moon
bee moon
bel moony
belle morimoonie
berlingot moute
bia mæria
bianca na
birdie nai
birdsong nana
blair nana
bloodbride nathália
blume nessa
bonafini nic
brigtter nina
broccomilie nina
brookie! no one
c nyanbot
callie ohdeer
cariatide pam
carol peaches
caroline petra
caroline priscila
caroline pétala
cassie rae
cedar raxaaa
cee riho
ch. rika
chan ro
chrissy rodi
christina rose
clare runa
cláudia ruptures
coleen s.
colove s.
constelacione... s. n.
crobat sam
czar selena
d shakti
daisy shannon
damien shosanna
dani shug avery
dayna silverb
debs skudge
derura ihi skye
dina sloane
doki. sms
e soel
eden sofia
eleven softie
eli sophie
elihomicidal speedtrials
elise steph
elizabeth sumire
ella tana
elle tanan
elodie tanja
em tay
emi tenneil
emi the traveler
emily tigerhead
emma tori
encre tori
endlessness u
envy valeyvonne
enya vee
eri vetica
erika vi
estella vices
esther vicky
evan vickye
evelyn vitória
fallon vizy
fefa whit
felipe willow
fernanda with a cherry...
fia yuu
florrie zai
furiousrose zoey
ʚɞ
gabs
georgia rose
gideon ᴠɪʀɢᴏ
gigi ℋosho
giulia
halinka ℬlade
hayley ユノ
homura
honeybee
humi 乙女解剖
hunni
hyena 絵梨
iana
immagina
inara ꜱᴀᴡʏᴇʀ
isa 알바
isabella words

j u n e .

  • week 1 (june 8-14) » Liene is back at the ward and it's upsetting/triggering me; my psychiatrist thinks I have BPD (I agree with her); abandonment fears because of a new doctor and being moved to a different ward; crisis averted - my psych continues being my psych even in a different ward; finally a good mood; mom brought a lot of food; i'm getting discharged next week; coffee at 8AM; oculogyric crisis
  • week 2 (june 15-21) » anxiety; lexotanil; whatsapp group chat "tvaika bērni"; got discharged; no pharmacy had ypsila, but I got an alternative (though it cost 7€); stated reading joel dicker's novel; reunited with my cat; roatrip during the weekend; finally home
  • week 3 (june 22-28) » sleepless night; midsummer; bought the haunting of hill house book; mom angry at me; trying to get high from a nasal syrup; awake mega super early; major restless legs, cyclodol abuse; visited grandma with family

j u l y .

  • week 4 (june 29-july 5) » four sedative meds before sleep and i finally slept; extreme irritability; med abuse; feeling guilty; modern family; drove to help grandma with her store; family road trip to Cesvaine and Madona; OGC
  • week 5 (july 6-12) » OGC; sister visiting; affectionate with Amy; modern family; a new coloring book; walking in rain and out of breath
  • week 6 (july 13-19) » watching the good doctor; splitting on a friend; feeling abandoned by my therapist; feeling better than before; taking meds as prescribed every day; uncle's yacht party; funeral; sister visiting; sister's cat's death; caur ērkšķiem uz; being excited to take each cyclodol dose
  • week 7 (july 20-26) » toy story 4 with sister; vacation at a manor; psych appointment through phone; lithuania and lidl; finished all caur ērkšķiem uz; started the vampire diaries; read the haunting of hill house
  • week 8 (july 27 - august 2) » name day; a new book; crab salad; četri uz koferiem; coke with lemon; cleaned the flat; the vampire diaries; bolt food; spider in the study room; 6 mg bromazepam; gin & tonic; stole xanax; bought DXM; mood is going down

a u g u s t .

  • week 9 (august 4-9) » helping grandma at the store; OGC but cyclodol helped; anxiety sparks; drinking plum juice at night; playing cards; cousin's dinner; buying a gross wine bottle and getting the cork stuck inside; a new book; nanograms and sudoku; OGC; back home.
  • week 10 (august 10-16) » DXM; met up with a friend; therapy in person for the first time in months; DXM; sister visiting; ordering mcd; ordering pizza
  • week 11 (august 17-23) » slept for 16 hours; saw palm springs at the move theater with mom; cleaned the whole flat; gave beer a chance; insomnia; mild psychosis; relapse; artane; a new phone case that has xanax on it; started journalling again; med increase
  • week 12 (august 24-30) » at grandma's with cousin; DXM; OGC; playing cards; kebabs; brooklyn nine nine; sweet potato fries; a lot of laughing; good night's sleep

s e p t e m b e r

  • week 13 (august 31-september 6) » apple cider; depressed; cleaning my flat with mom; paranoia; loneliness; reading midnight sun; staying away from substances
  • week 14 (september 7-13) » uni lectures; staying at parents; job offer; stealing meds; getting used psych books from facebook; missing a night dose of meds; helping grandma at the store; hallucinations
  • week 15 (september 14-20) » x-factor; irritability; lectures; my kettle broke; kitchen table in the bedroom; anxiety
  • week 16 (september 21-27) » visiting parent's, excel job, DXM, OGC
  • week 17 (septmber 28-october 4) » ordering KFC; scheduled an appointment with my drama therapist
  • week 18 (septmber 5-11) » visiting mom, DXM, bly manor on netflix, good therapy session
jun 14 2020 ∞
sep 30 2021 +