— documenting the ups and downs of my daily life with mental illness.

• 01. ┊ was generally a nice day. wanted to abuse meds at the end but only out of habit and to feel good. i did feel rejected/abandoned due to friends not responding
• 02. ┊ pretty good day, but totally unproductive, which is the depressing thought
• 03. ┊ felt sort of shitty, bur the dxm helped. was annoyed at how long we need to wait for the lsd
• 04. ┊ when the cyclodol worn down i felt like literal crap for the next 12 hours
• 05. ┊ i hadn't been this irritable in literal ages. just wanted to sleep it all away. felt depressed too. started splitting on a few people, just in general BPD symptoms flaring up
• 06. ┊ everything is literal shit, lost memory, hallucinated, took dxm too much
• 07. ┊ depressed nearly all of the day
• 08. ┊ was exhausted the whole day, mood swings
• 09. ┊ pretty good day
• 10. ┊ felt physically sick, but mentally was fine, not the brightest, but fine, had weird dreams
• 20. ┊ wanted to get high all the time, cut myself
• 21. ┊ tried to get high, got drunk, felt sick and depressed at the end, mood swings, unstable