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- an extremely weird dream and occurrence right after I woke up from it. I was running away from pirates and hid behind a wall and as I was looking to see where the pirates are, suddenly a pirate appeared and poked my right eye with his finger. then I woke up, AND NO ONE WILL BELIEVE BUT, immediately after I accidentally poked my right eye.
- I've been murdered in dreams a lot. most commonly with an axe. the first time that happened I was petrified, but then I got used to it.
- my grandma's old flat is where I used to get very unpleasant dreams, always running away from something. I've ran through the forest and fields to the next city.
- I often see my FP's hospital in dreams. and usually she's not there and I never get to meet her. once I saw her and screaming ran to the bathroom area. once I hid in a vent to see what she's doing. once I was in her apartment. once she had a daughter. once she had a son. once she had dark hair. but she was never like she used to be in real life. maybe it shows my desperate attempts to be close to her (platonically) even though professionally that cannot happen (I wish she was my cool aunt). I'm pretty sure if dreams are supposed to convey a message, these type of dreams tell me I cannot be close to her and never will no matter what. it's impossible.
- I had a dream I was burning in flames in hell. it felt 100% real. I had lost my sight but could only hear bells and people speaking. then I finally regained my sight but was unable to speak. I was in court that looked and was a classroom. it had people in it who I've done either wrong or good. they were the ones deciding if I should proceed to spend my eternity in hell. the court decided I'm staying in hell. later I asked someone from hell how I died, they told me I had overdosed on a massive amount of pills. I then had an enormous forlorn feeling of deep regret and I wish I could have gone back and not taken any pills. this dream might have been a warning sign.
- I'm at my old flat and someone is knocking on the door pretending to be someone else so I'd let them in, but I know they want to murder me, so I jump off the balcony to wake up.
- another way I wake up is I find a larger area and spin around with my arms stretched out and eyes closed, most of the time I wake up.
- a woman knocks on the door and asks me if I want to live or die, I say live and then immediately wake up.
- I've had my arm chopped off and when I wake up I find myself not feeling my arm as I've been sleeping on it.
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