— hobbies.

• tv shows
  • AHS ⋆ friends ⋆ viņas melo labāk ⋆ modern family ⋆ the big bang theory ⋆ x faktors
• books
  • the perks of being a wallflower ⋆ how we feel ⋆ 14'000 to be happy about

— good things.

• discovering cinnamon coke zero ⋆ chamomile iced tea ⋆ highlighters ⋆ cute new phone cases ⋆ winter anderson ⋆ mallory ⋆ rings ⋆ mandarins ⋆ my new bed ⋆ books ⋆ self help ⋆ making playlists ⋆ AHS ⋆ sweaters ⋆ high heel boots ⋆ gray hair ⋆ making pinterest character boards ⋆ long socks ⋆ black nail polish ⋆ getting a new hair color ⋆ feeling a lot less depressed ⋆ very little panic attacks ⋆ no self injury ⋆ vegetables in broth ⋆ circle k burgers ⋆ new glasses ⋆ black hair ties ⋆ new shampoo ⋆ marks in english & ethics

— bad things.

• logic lectures ⋆ my earphones ⋆ the situation with my therapist ⋆ splitting ⋆ my mark in general psych ⋆ insomnia ⋆ bad memory ⋆ paranoia ⋆ feeling fake ⋆ derealization ⋆ snow ⋆ cold weather ⋆ dirty floors ⋆ cold feet ⋆ social anxiety ⋆ overthinking ⋆ netflix not showing AHS ⋆ being left out ⋆ having to wear glasses constantly ⋆ bad spelling ⋆ anxiety over talks of death and descriptive self injury ⋆ oversleeping my english lecture ⋆ being bad at presentations ⋆ my lecturer not smiling back ⋆ the canteen closing at 4 pm ⋆ having to move from one building to another at uni ⋆ the hood of my coat always falling off ⋆ not understanding sarcasm ⋆ upsetting everyone ⋆ nail polish coming off ⋆ spending money that's not mine ⋆ not seeing any movies this month ⋆ crowded public transport ⋆ having to let the elderly sit in your seat ⋆ homeless people in public transport ⋆ mood swings ⋆ weight gain and weight loss ⋆ bulimia ⋆ guilt ⋆ anxiety/stress/worry

— discoveries

• i'm not mentally ill, i'm fine
• i won't go to therapy because my therapist hates me and invalidates me
• olanzapine sedates me more than xanax
• i still remember my fp's face and voice + i still adore/love/miss her
• i'm not aromantic, maybe homoromantic
• the longer i don't cut the less amount of urges i get
• my english is getting worse
• i am a spender
• most people in my life piss me off very often