— events.
  
    - 02. · 900 mg gabapentin 
 
    - 03. · 200 mg geodon 
 
  
  — hobbies.
  
    - films
      
        - blakus ⋆ happy death day 2u ⋆ deadpool 2 ⋆ dumbo ⋆ avengers: end game 
 
      
  
    - tv shows
      
        - according to jim ⋆ chilling adventures of sabrina ⋆ how i met your mother ⋆ american horror story ⋆ viss pa jaunam ⋆ gatava pārvērtībām ⋆ modern family ⋆ the big bang theory 
 
      
  
  
  — health.
  
    - ups
      
        - depression ended ⋆ high ups ⋆ a few good days ⋆ a lot less OGC ⋆ wanting to do things again ⋆ motivation ⋆ less intrusive thoughts ⋆ less appetite 
 
      
  
    - downs
      
        - anxiety back ⋆ paranoia ⋆ hallucinations ⋆ mood swings ⋆ fears of abandonment ⋆ feeling worthless and useless ⋆ everyone hates me ⋆ wanting to isolate ⋆ splitting ⋆ low empathy ⋆ suspiciousness ⋆ irritability ⋆ OCD ⋆ purging a few times ⋆ fluctuating body image ⋆ getting triggered easily ⋆ social anxiety ⋆ huge jealousy  ⋆ dissociation ⋆ void ⋆ urges to be self destructive 
 
      
  
  
  — positive things.
  
    - contact lenses ⋆ reading ⋆ a new book ⋆ writing ⋆ a new antidepressant ⋆ painted my nails ⋆ road trips ⋆ little cousin, aunt, uncle visiting ⋆ sunny weather ⋆ sister's birthday ⋆ movie theater ⋆ iced tea ⋆ coke zero ⋆ new foundation ⋆ coffee ⋆ hot cocoa ⋆ HIMYM 
 
  
  — negative things.
  
    - being sick ⋆ writing less ⋆ less interest in music /spotify ⋆ missing FP ⋆ talking less to friends ⋆ feeling fake ⋆ being egocentric ⋆ curtains ⋆ mess ⋆ dusts ⋆ everything ⋆ wanting to quit therapy 
 
  
            apr 30 2019 ∞
 oct 9 2021 +