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── january.

• 01. new year! / 02. i cant wait for school aghsdhafsfjks / 05. my dog's face randomly decided to swell up and i feel so bad for him. / 07. why does my life always fall apart. / 18. THE IPOD TOUCH CAME IN! I have it decorated the best I can and i have music on there / 20. a second snow storm in like a month's time? in west texas? what an actual miracle / 27. i have so much shit, i think its starting to affect my feng shui 😭 but i dont know what to get rid of.; also ive already wasted a planner for this year. idek how i'll use it but i don't want to keep wasting money on planners bleh

── february.

• 13. getting my hair dyed today im very excited!; its okay, i hope i start to like it more; rainstorm!!! / 20. new phone! it doesn't feel like a brick / 23. been depressed as always during this time of year, but i'm trying to be a little more grounded. / 28. potential relationship happening?

── march.

• 03. i think hes the one / 19. went on the date. / 30. wtf why was our relationship geniunely only like 11 days what the fuck is wrong with him / 31. been depressed this month as always BUTTT going out to the skatepark with the bros so hopefully it'll get better.

── april.

• 02. doing things for my stupid mental health (dressing up, taking walks) / 07. finally have (pretty much) all of my belongings in one house after its been over two years!!! / 09. it's hard to not think of what could have been, but i'm trying to consider what could be. / 20. i think i'm experiencing an ego death? or something like it / 25. I got asked to be a manager at work and I said yes! / 29. It's crazy how your life can completely change in a year. A year ago, I had no car, no job, and was still getting over my past relationship. Now I have a car (that i still cant drive yet but im working on it), im going to be a manager at my work, and I am much more overall stable.

── may.

• 03. practiced driving ! 🚙 / 15. omg. the chick-fil-a grilled chicken with lettuce wrap, a fruit cup, and their strawberry hibiscus sunjoy (w/ sweet tea and diet lemonade) is like, really good???? and not much calories. I'm actually so happy. / 29. Went to the doctors today.

── june.

• 01. six interviews lined up this month! / 03. crazy how I so quickly got a new job!!! / 08. i should start doing monthly wrap ups because there are so many things this month i am obsessed with / 11. trying to like cereal :D / 14. reached a new low weight of 163! 188 --> 163 / 16. hung out with kaylee (pool+walk and talk) and then having the most summer meal ever (sandwich, apples, lime jello, orange juice, and chips) / 19. I cut my hair... / 27. hangout with the media club today !

── july.

• 08. down in the dumps but trying my best! been crying a lot. haven't properly cried in a long time so it feels kind of good. / 09. the idea of death has been hitting me hard as of late. / 21. went to the urgent care because I was having severe abdomen pain. / 22. turns out i have 10 gallstones.... so I am going to have a consultation with a surgeon to see if i will need to get it laproscopically removed. / 28. I GOT A NEW JOB MAKING 16.50 AN HRRRRR AT TARGETTTTT!!!!11 / 31. orientation at t-t-t-target today!!!

── august.

• 01. I like my new job :D / 16. sometimes i get sad because i definitely remember things about people that they couldnt remember about me if they tried / 19. looking forward to my first full paycheck

── september.

• 01. zendaya and jungkook bday #ilovethem / 08. omg im 21 aughhdfjkdfkhjsdfkmhfjk / 18. fall is upon us / 30. kind of forgot to update this diary but this month has been pretty boring anyways; I got to see Aespa and i've been kinda talking to a guy?

── october.

• 01. spooky, scary skeletons and shivers down my spine / 07. i got my surgery </3